A Golden Heart (Golden guard x reader)

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Previously:

So much for not thinking things through, Golden Guard.

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"I think you should go" I say averting my eyes.

"Y/n-"

"Hunter, please leave". I don't bother to look it up. I hear the door shut.

I wait until the footsteps down the hall disappear to sink into my bed. For the first time since I met Hunter I got into bed and drifted off to a peaceful and dreamless sleep instantly.

I wake up. I get dressed. I go to work. I don't think about anything. I don't say anything.I haven't gotten any letters, It's not like I expect any anyways.

It has been a week. I still avoid him. I'm taking more shifts with Kikimora. Sometimes me and Hunter pass each other in the halls. We make eye contact for a split second, and every time we notice we turn our head back down.

The sun is setting, I admire the purple pink skies from my window. I should clear my head. I grab a cloak and my staff and go out through the window. I fly above Bonesburough and to the forest. As I land I see someone on the hill.

It's Hunter.

I step on a twig and he snaps his head back. He looks at me. This time when we make eye contact we don't break.

"Oh I'm sorry I should just leave" he stands up, but I put my hand on his shoulder. His shoulders flinch. He stops to look at me.

"Look, I'm not happy with you right now," I say "but we aren't solving any problems by not communicating with each other."

"Okay" He looks at the ground and then looks back up at me. "You start"

I don't know where to start. So many things have been circulating my mind these past days. I guess I should start with the main question. The question I find myself asking all the damn time. "Why?"

"I guess it was because I didn't want you to see me as the golden guard. I wanted to know what it felt like to have someone know me without the title" He says, looking at his fidgeting hands the whole time.

"No, I can understand that, after all I did the same" I say "I mean why didn't you tell me that you knew who I really was?"

His eyes widen. He opens his mouth to say something, but closes it again. "I don't know" he starts "I never wanted to hurt you, but when our relationship is built off lies, I suppose it was bound to happen."

As much as I hate it, he's right. We were bound to fall apart at some point. I feel tears building up in my eyes; I turn my head so he wont see. A single tear falls from my eye, and I can feel his gaze on me. His hand turns my head to face him. He wipes away my tear.

"I'm sorry" He says "If you want me to walk away and never speak to you again, I'll do it. I don't want to be the one to hurt you anymore."

I've never been so conflicted before. I wrap my arms around him.

"Can we just stay like this for a little while?" He doesn't respond; he just wraps his arms around me as I rethink this whole conversation.

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It's been another week. We haven't spoken since that night. On my desk are letters, letters I never intended to send to him. They are filled with so many things I wish he knew, but that I could never tell him.

Sometimes in the middle of the night I wanna hold his hands and sometimes I wanna slap him across the face.

I wish he wasn't always on my mind. I wish I could focus on something, anything without thinking of him. I look at my reflection wondering how I am going to face him tonight. The emperor has arranged a ball for the nobles of the land. I don't think anyone knows why. It could be to share info about the day of unity, or to improve his image. Whatever it is, I'm required to make an appearance.

Two guards should be picking me up to take me to the ballroom any minute. Emperor Belos doesn't want any higher ranking scout walking alone when such a big event is going on. I hear rumors of assassination attempts by wild witches since the day of unity is in a matter of weeks.

When my designated guards come and pick me up we walk in an uncomfortable silence. The only thing I hear throughout the long walk is my footsteps echoing in the hall with muffled music and conversation in the background.

I walk in and it seems everyone is already there; I hate being late.

The next hour is full of people introducing themselves to me, being asked uncomfortable questions, and subconsciously scanning the room for Hunter. I obviously wasn't as late as I thought I was because people are still arriving. Sometimes I hear someone enter and I look up secretly hoping Hunter is coming in. He never is.

I hear the door open and I look up. My stomach drops. It's not Hunter, but it's not the faces of people I don't know. When Belos said all the nobles on the isle were coming here tonight I never once for a second considered that he would invite my parents.

I pray they don't see me practically run away. I open the door to a balcony. I step out into the cool air and sigh in relief. It feels so good to step out of the crowded, warm, loud ballroom. It feels good to finally be alone.

On the other side of the balcony I hear someone clear their throat. Maybe I'm not as alone as I thought. I look over to see who it is. It's Hunter. Of course it's Hunter.

"You seem to be having a marvelous time tonight" His sarcastic voice cuts off all thoughts.

"Why haven't you been here all night." I don't want small talk; I want real talk.

"I didn't want to be here tonight" He opens his mouth to say something else but decides not to.

"I don't either, but why are you out here?" I ask further

"I could ask you the same thing," he pauses "I don't want to be here and Belos wouldn't notice me gone anyway"

A look of pure hurt and hatred crosses over his face for just a split second. The look lasts long enough for me to notice though.

I feel a deep pain in my chest, guilt. In all our time apart this is definitely not the first time I've felt the familiar stab of guilt.

"Hunter" A million thoughts circle my mind "I-"

He interrupts me. I hate when people interrupt me, but I don't mind his lips pressed on mine. My mind just stops for a second. He stops and looks at me, I look at him too.

When I wrap my arms around him, he feels like home.

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