ten more reasons ~ ghost b.c

running high pt.1

there was never a dull moment between us, the day we met will forever stick in my mind. it was like something out of a movie, i was walking around the venue for our first practice with the band and i made him drop his guitar when i bumped into him.

he assured me it was okay but i wouldn't budge, i ended up buying him a coffee to say sorry. we were the new ones to the band around 2017, there was automatically a bond between us being the newbies to the group.

he and i spent days on end hanging out and helping each other grasp the new material. the one day we knew there was a spark between us was the first show of tour.

emotions were running high when we got off of stage and that led to us almost making out in my dressing room. ever since then it's been this gray area, it wasn't necessarily a bad one but we never spoke- we still never speak about what it is between us.

we tend to hide it from the band but they caught on quite quickly, at least chris did. i'm not too sure about the others. sometimes it led me to wonder if there was anything there at all, i wonder if he did the same.

for now we tend to enjoy our moments, like when we give our final bow on stage he's always the first to find my hand or when we're having trouble with music we go to each other for help.

our touchy moments tend to make me fall even harder for him, when he runs his fingers up and down my arms, or when his hand finds mine when we walk around the venue at times. like i said... never a dull moment.

"for what it was worth, i thought you did great tonight" he tells me quietly as he runs his hand over my hair. i pick my head up and look straight ahead, not wanting to meet his eyes. as a singer loosing your voice is a big deal, this was the first time i actually really hurt it.

he pushes some of my hair behind my ear so he could get a better look at me. i finally make my eyes meet his, my  eyes start to water "oh no... don't do that.." he whispers as he pulls me into him.

i bring my knees to my chest and rest my head on his shoulder "i just don't understand... i take care of myself so i can have this voice and just like that.. it's gone" i tell him and he runs his thumb along my knee "it's not gone... it's still there, you'll get it back" he mumbles.

i keep my eyes on the window as i watch the street lights go by through my blurred vision "you have nothing to worry about... no one's mad okay?" he reassures me and i nod my head "did i tell you what i did earlier?" he asks me and i pick my head up "no?" i say confused and a closed smile forms on his lips

"when we all went out before the show to grab something to eat, there was this family at the booth in front of us. this little girl was wearing a ghost shirt. jutty, chris, and i thought it would be cool to throw her for a loop and hand her some guitar picks. what we didn't know is that her brother really knew his shit on the band- he got my name right and everything" he says with a smile which he tries to hide a bit

"you never know with these fans" i tell him and he nods his head "it was amazing though, seeing the little girls face light up and running back to her brother-" he stops short and shakes his head a bit "gotta love the job" i laugh a bit and rest my head back on his shoulder

"syracuse was fun, hershey next right?" i ask. he looks down at me and nods "planning on sleeping?" he changes the subject and i shake my head "no, but you need too" i sit up and he nods his head

"i'll see you in the morning" he tells me as he takes one of my blankets and drapes it over me, then plants a kiss on my forehead before walking into the room of bunks and shutting the door for the night.

per's pov:

i went to bed thinking about how upset she was... and i woke up thinking about upset she'll still be. a sigh leaves my lips as i get up out of the bunk and head to the bathroom to brush my teeth. i hear chris and tobias whispering out in the lounge area.

as i slide the door open their heads turn to me with wide eyes "i don't think i've ever seen her sleep in this late..." chris tells me and tobias looks down at her sweetly "let her sleep, yesterday was a tough day for her" he says and i sit down on the space lorraine isn't taking up on the couch

"that's putting it lightly.." i tell them. sophie walks through and shuts the door a bit loudly behind her. she quickly covers her mouth with her hand seeing that lorraine is still sleeping "aw jesus soph" chris whines out as lorraine rustles in her sleep.

she sits up and looks around while staying quiet. as she picks up her phone her eyes go wide and she looks to me "you guys are insane for letting me sleep so late" her voice comes out harsh and she winces at the sound of it

"it's only ten" tobias tells her and she looks at him through her squinted eyes "i wake up at six every morning... you know this" she states and i smile at her attitude. she gets up with her blanket still wrapped around her and leaves to use the bathroom.