ten more reasons ~ ghost b.c

traffic pt.2

"goddammit i keep fucking it up- okay again" tobias tells me and jutty, who are trying to fit a new harmony into kaisarion.

jutty and i sing out parts and tobias finally gets the right note "there we go!" jutty pats his shoulder before going back into his dressing room. tobias' eyes meet mine and a bittersweet look comes across his face "let's not cry yet? we have a show to do and then we can cry" i hold a finger up and he nods his head once
"deal" i laugh under my breath.

"laura do you need help with-" "lorraine i don't want you to go" she cuts me as i step into her dressing room to also see chris and hayden hanging out in there "yeah this fucking sucks" hayden speaks up and chris points, agreeing with him "guys... come on" i tell them. i walk over and clip the back of laura's boots closed

"i'll be gone for like.. two weeks? maybe three?" chris groans and i smack his arm "quit being a bitch about it" i say through clenched teeth and laura laughs "i've gone home before-"
"yeah and that was the most boring week of our lives" hayden tells me "well you have like a day left with me before i leave so make the best of it... and quit being sad!" i shout while i leave the room.

cosmo walks down the hall tiredly "rough night?" i joke with him and he moans "who let me drink so much?" he asks and i hold my hands up i'm defense "go talk to jutty on that one" i say with a laugh.

knowing what was coming afterwards made the show speed by it felt like. tobias was saying his final words to the crowd "we have to say goodbye for a little bit" he says and the crowd yells their "no's" all around.

he waves them off "not for too long.. not for too long but... here's one last song!" he yells and we break into square hammer. it seemed like the song only lasted for one second. jutty and i sing out our last note along with tobias, i step back from my mic and start getting a bit emotional behind my mask.

before i leave my platform i take one last look at the crowd. per waits for me, i put my hand in his then put my other hand in laura's. we line up and take our final bow for this leg of tour. tobias starts hugging jutty then chris. he gets to me and squeezes me tight before moving onto laura and per.

i take some picks from chris' hand and throw them out to the crowd. hayden pulls me close and throws his drum sticks into the crowd as well. we all leave the stage as tobias takes his final bow "i need some hot tea like as soon as we get on the bus" i take my mask off and let my hair down.

everyone looks at me worried and i shake my head quickly "no i'm fine! i just want some tea" i laugh at their faces and they continue to move through the hallway. just like every time, i change into different clothes, zip up my bag and head to per's dressing room.

he sits in his dressing room staring at the wall with a hand over his mouth while his elbow rests on the arm of the couch "what's wrong?" i run my hand over his hair catching his attention "i just don't want you to leave yet..." he tells me sounding sad, i sit next to him and take his hand in both of mine "well i don't leave until tomorrow... you have me until 5" i tell him.

he puts his eyes on my his hand in mine "i know ,love" he mumbles. my face falls as i see how upset he is "it's gonna be shit without you here" he stands up and so do i. he places a long kiss on my lips, we pull away and he grabs my bag for me as we make our way on the bus.

he was off. the whole bus ride not one look at me, he didn't reach for my hand. he didn't laugh, he didn't have a beer with the rest of the guys. he was different. i move from my seat next to him to go sit and talk to laura about my plans while i'm gone.

"i might go visit sophie for a while and then possibly go back up to syracuse? i found it nice over there and then i'm going to spend some time back home in new york" i tell her and cosmos head raises at the mention of sophie's name

"just don't pull a sophie and never come back" he points at me being serious and i put up my right hand "i pledge to come back, i promise" say and go back to mine and laura's conversation. per gets up, grabs a beer and closes the door to the bunks behind him for the night.

i watch his every move before laura puts a hand on my back "is everything okay between you two?" she asks with a worried tone. i shrug my slumped shoulders in defeat "i don't know... he's pissed about me leaving and i don't know what to do and i can't talk to him in front everyone i just-" "i'll talk to him" cosmo says through a sigh as he gets up and heads to the bunks as well

"don't be loud everyone is asleep" laura whispers and cosmo waves her off before shutting the door. i can hear cosmo talking with his voice low making sure not to wake the others, after a few minutes per's voice comes through muffled. i sip my tea and wait for them to get finished talking.

cosmo stands in the doorway and motions laura over. per walks out and laura stands up "we will go in here and let you guys talk" she says quietly walking past per, shutting the door behind her. he sits across from me and keeps his eyes on the beer in his hands

"cosmo told me i should stop being a dick and be supportive of your actions so..." he waves his hand around "i'm sorry for being a dick and i should make the most of the time i have left with you, until you leave" he tells me and i smile as i continue to scroll on my phone

"did cosmo tell you to say that or?-" "no" he moves seats and sits next to me "when we get to LA i'll help you pack" he places his hand on my thigh keeping his eyes on mine "positive? or do you wanna throw yourself on the bed and be sad some more?-" "oh shut up" he squeezes my leg and i laugh under my breath.

cosmo peaks his head out "good?" per shakes his head sadly "nope, she hates me" he says plainly and i nudge his arm "yes we're good" per reassures him with a small smile "i think i want a beer.. or maybe a shot" i say and cosmo goes over to the mini fridge.

he tosses me a can of beer "drink it" he walks over and twists my arm "there" he says grabbing himself one too. we open it in unison, cheers and take a drink "too a long... alcohol filled night" per tells us both.

A/N- GUYS!!! lmk what kind of things you would like to see in this book!! i'm so totally down for some outside ideas! they would be much help to me. happy reading!!! -m🫧