Between Forever and Nothing

Chapter 7

Chapter 7: "It's a beautiful thing when you get comfortable with someone, and you realize you're telling them things you've never said out loud before."

"You've seen me here before?"

At that moment, I wasn't so sure whether to let him find the missing pieces of his memory or drag him away to keep him safe. 

I wanted to help him get his memory back because nobody deserved to be in the dark but then again, his brother specifically told me that it could do more harm if we forced him to remember. Said we should let his memory come back naturally. 

But what if it doesn't? Should we just then let him be in limbo for the rest of his life; Let him feel incomplete?

"Kuya Joe could be wrong. They have tons of customers here every night."

Why did I say that? I didn't know why. All I knew was that I had to protect him at all costs. I knew I did the right thing. But if it was, then why did it feel so wrong?

Kaagad ko na siyang inilayo kay kuya Joe at dinala sa table na nakalaan sa amin. There was no crease on his forehead anymore, but I could tell that he was distracted. He seemed bothered. 

I'm sorry, DJ. Seeing him like this made me feel guilty. Alam ko ang totoo, but I couldn't tell him due to his condition. 

Hindi nagtagal ay sinenyasan na ako ni kuya Raff na umakyat na sa stage. Huminga ako ng malalim at binalingan siya. 

"Iwan muna kita."

He smiled and nodded. "Can't wait to hear you sing."

"Talking about pressure!" 

He chuckled. 

I went up to the stage with my guitar then sat on the high stool. Inayos ko ang gitara at mic bago bumati sa lahat. 

"Good evening, everyone. How's your night so far at Mitigate? Hope you're all having a blast!" They all made noise in return. "For tonight, let me kick it off with a song which I dedicate to everyone who is going through some tough time."

I swallowed hard and looked into his eyes. "Listen, this is for you." I strummed my guitar. "You with the sad eyes, don't be discouraged. Oh, I realize; It's hard to take courage in a world full of people. You can lose sight of it all. And the darkness inside you, can make you feel so small."

Is losing a beautiful but painful part of your memory a curse or a gift? How would DJ view it once his memory comes back?

"Show me a smile then. Don't be unhappy. Can't remember when last I saw you laughing. If this world makes you crazy and you've taken all you can bear, just call me up because I'll be there."

I'll always be here for you, DJ.

"And I'll see your true colors, shining through. I see your true colors and that's why I love you. So, don't be afraid to let them show your true colors. Your true colors. Your true colors... Are beautiful like a rainbow."

Bianca may have left you. And you may have lost your memory of her. But this I promise you, DJ, I'll do the best I can to make you smile once again. I'll do everything I can to fill in the gap.

After my performance, we didn't stay long at Mitigate. No matter how hard he tried to pretend that he was fine, I still saw through him; He was distracted and bothered. So, I took him to a place where I usually go to when I wanna clear my head.