Between Forever and Nothing

Chapter 4

Chapter 4: "You don't have to understand. You just have to have faith in destiny."

Serendipity? It's one of my most favorite words. According to Cambridge dictionary serendipity is the fact of finding interesting or valuable things by chance. Or by some, it simply means an fortunate accident: Something you find without even looking.

The first time I saw DJ, I knew serendipity truly existed; Thought he and I were meant to be together. Why not? I thought it didn't make sense if he weren't my soulmate; for he was the only guy who made my heart beat faster. The one I felt such a strong connection to. And all the what have yous you read in books about soulmates.

However, I learned there was Bianca in his life.. She left him, yes, but I know that she's someone no one could ever replace in his life. Hence, I ceased any illusion I had about us being together. Sure, I said that he could be the one; My soulmate.

But then again, being soulmates doesn't necessarily mean you'll end up together. I have long accepted that. 

So, I don't understand why our paths crossed this time..

"Thank you for saving my life. Fortunately, you were at the right place and time when the accident happened." 

I breathed out and nodded. "Seeing you in that state.. It was so scary." 

"I'm sorry. It probably gave you nightmares."

Nightmares? I couldn't even sleep well; Scared so much for his life. I had never prayed so hard the way I did that night he was in the hospital. The vivid image of his bloody state inside his wrecked car would still sometimes give me shiver. 

Seeing him alive though with some bruises and minor injuries made me teary eyed. I was just so grateful that he survived. 

I swallowed the lump in my throat and uttered, "I'm glad I was there."

A crease formed in his forehead as he looked into my eyes. Suddenly, he reached out and touched my face. And it felt like time stood still. Napatulala na lang ako sa kanya. 

"You're crying," he said.

My eyes widened and quickly looked away to wipe my tears. Stupid, Cassi! I didn't realize I was already crying. It was just that I felt so overwhelmed to see for myself that he was really fine. 

"I'm sorry. It's really stupid how I get emotional sometimes," I said, letting out an embarrassed chuckle.

I seriously wanted to smack my head. It was totally embarrassing! Why did I have to cry in front of him! Just great, Cassi! Now, he probably thinks you're weird!

"Uh.. Maybe I should take back my cousin.." Umawang ang mga labi ko ng hindi ko na makita sa paligid sina Maya at nurse Tamara. "W-where are they?"

"They've already left."

My face heat up in embarrassment. I touched the back of my head and gave him an embarrassed smile. "I should go. Anyway, I hope you get better soon."

"Let me walk you back to your cousin's room."

My eyes went round. Itinaas ko ang mga kamay at umiling. "Huwag na. Kailangan mo na rin magpahinga."

"Let's go," he said like he didn't hear anything and turned his back.

Hindi ako nakahuma at napasunod na lang sa kanya. Inside the lift, I had to take a deep breath several times since his presence was enough to give me overwhelming feelings. 

I cleared my throat and decided to break the silence. "So.. Kelan ka makakalabas ng hospital?"

"Two days from now." I nodded. "What about your cousin.. Maya, right?"