Hiding Myself

Chapter Twenty Six

*Song of this chapter - Somewhere only we know by Keane*

Thursday 27th December 2002: 16:12pm

PAISLEE IVY

She's ok.

She's safe, and ok.

She was able to get to the hospital in time and go into immediate surgery. She survived and is now having to stay in the hospital for a few weeks until it's safe for her to go back home.

I stayed with her the entire time. I was in the hospital waiting for results of how the surgery went, without once going to the restroom, getting a drink, or food.

I got to paranoid that her doctor would arrive to tell me news and I wouldn't there.

Lexi stayed with me for half an hour, but had to go back home to Sophie. She has a nanny that takes care of her, but Lexi says she rarely has to call her in, and chooses not to by her character.

It's understandable, to panic for your child's safety. I never had anyone to panic for me.

I'm sat on the arm chair besides auntie Lauren's hospital bed, almost falling asleep. I've been here for a total eight hours. I'm tired.

I've had a tiring day.

She went back to sleep fifteen minutes ago, so I'm getting bored. I've received multiple messages from Asher, but I've chosen to ignore them all.

I still don't know what to believe. That letter states that it was my father all alone, which makes more sense to me.

I was at auntie Lauren's house the day my mother died, and I did wake up screaming to pain. I just wasn't aware of why I was feeling it.

But why were the letters at Asher's house?

"Go home, Paislee" I hear from in front of me.

A faint whisper from auntie Lauren. I hate that name. Correction... I hated that name. I hated it because my father would traumatise me with that name. But I loved it, because it was the only name my mother ever got to experience calling me.

I smile at her and shake my head no.

"I'm staying with you. You're not safe" I reply.

"I'm in a hospital, I'm almost certain I'm safe. And David's gone. He was arrested remember"

I sigh heavily. I know he is, and I know she is. But to be honest. I don't know where home is.

I would go to Lexi's house but I don't know where it is, and I don't feel Sophie is safe around me. I'll probably cry, and scream again, and I have every right to. Just not there.

I pick up my phone and shoot a text. Lexi brought my phone with her so I could keep contact.

Me: I'm coming over

I'm forward with my message. I need somewhere to stay, and the only person I can think of is Asher.

I'm angry, sad, hurt, traumatised, and in need to scream. I just refuse to show that to auntie Lauren. But I know she can see right through me.

"Paislee"

I look up at her.

"If you have questions, ask them. You deserve to know the truth about everything. I'll answer any if you want?"

I take a minute to process her words. She's right. I have questions that deserves answers. I shake my head.

"There's only one person that needs to give me answers"