Unhinged

Shashank

Shashank and Sharanya both weren't in their senses. Sharanya was so brainwashed that she believed she needed to help him and this was the only way. And Shashank was so vulnerable and helpless that he couldn't distinct between right and wrong.

When Sharanya stood on her toes and pulled him close, he felt his heart racing. Shashank didn't know how to react. Was this even real? How can it be? He knew Sharanya and she'd never do this, then how can this be real?

"Sharanya" Shashank somehow said.

"This is the right thing to do Shashank" Sharanya whispered "You should know that this is the right thing"

Shashank's arms wrapped around her waist as she kissed him. Sharanya was the one who initiated the kiss and Shashank, who was lost and befuddled, stood still. At first he didn't know what to do but in some seconds he felt that he needs to establish a connection between them to get what he want.. The happiness that he saw on everyone's faces, the peace..!

Shashank pulled her close and kissed her back. Sharanya felt butterflies in her stomach but knot in Shashank's stomach tightened! Both were feeling different things whilst their lips met with each other, their fingers ran over each other's figure.

Sharanya felt her back touching the mattress on bed and Shashank's weight over her. Shashank looked at her and their eyes met. It was that moment when Sharanya felt that this wasn't wrong.. She did want him and she might be in love with him as Naveen had suggested!

But vibes she was getting from Shashank weren't same.. Shashank looked at her but his eyes seemed different.. As if he wasn't himself.. He wasn't the Shashank she knew.

Shashank didn't know what he was doing. At first he was just following Sharanya's lead but then she seemed lost so he had to take over. Shashank being the experienced one took the lead and Sharanya just held him close as he pulled out her remaining clothes.

Sharanya had never thought that her first time would be like this.. She could feel that Shashank didn't feel the same as her. He didn't consider her inexperience, He might not even know who she was because drugs were taking their toll on his mind, body.

Sharanya had always imagined who she'd end up with, how he'll love her, how their union will be. She imagined it being Lovely and beautiful! But this was something she had never imagined. Her tears rolled down on her cheeks and mixed in her hair as she felt pain.. Real pain!

Shashank was more high than her. For him world was spinning and he didn't know what he was doing. But whatever that was happening felt wrong to him.

It seemed like eternity for Sharanya. It was as if time wasn't moving at all. All she could feel was Shashank over her and the pain! She was lying still, she wasn't even holding him anymore. She didn't groan to let him know that she was in pain.. But the feeling that she might love him was still there.. She knew he was going through a lot and she was ready to understand.

As it ended Shashank left her and came over to the other side of bed. They both were panting and Sharanya was still lying straight. She couldn't dare to move so she didn't bother. Her eyes were heavy and her eyelids were falling. Shashank was quiet. It seemed like whole world was in silence. What had just happened was unbelievable for both of them.

Sharanya closed her eyes and felt good. And Shashank was already asleep.

**

When Shashank opened his eyes, sunrays were coming in from a window. His head was throbbing. He was confused. He looked at his left side where Sharanya was asleep. Her bare body was clad in blanket and so was his.

Scenes from last night flashed in front of his eyes. He stood up and wore his clothes. He was still under some influence but now he could understand what has happened..!