Unhinged

Chapter 13

"Tonight's session is all about connection.." Naveen said "Connection that we all have with each other.. We are like a family now.. Suffering from same problems, believing on same things.."

Sharanya was looking at Shashank who was smoking.

"Ho gaya na" Sharanya said "Dusra joint banaya tumne aur akele funk rahe ho"

"Tumhe chahiye?" Shashank asked.

"Nahi" She said.

"So I can't waste it.. I have to smoke" Shashank said.

Sharanya laughed. She was happy. The drugs had made her forget all the worries she had in her life.

"Kya dekh rahi ho tum?" Shashank asked

"Dekh rahi hoo tum kaise smoke karte ho" Sharanya said "Riva hamesha kehti hai ki usko pasand nahi aata tumhe smoke karte hue dekhna"

"Jhoot bolti hai" Shashank stated "Use mera smoke karna pasand nahi hai.. But she likes watching me when I smoke.. She thinks I look hot"

Sharanya chuckled. He did look hot!

"Do you think she understands you?" Sharanya asked " I mean we have so many similarities So I know it's hard for us to find people who understands us.."

Shashank thought for some seconds and exhaled "For me, Riva is something else.. I never expected from her that she'd understand my complex nature, my tragic mind. She really tried you know.. We were friends for almost a year and half before we started dating.." He said.

Shashank seemed lost in his thoughts" Riva tries but she doesn't understand me totally.. But what she does is that she tries to go past it.. Whenever something happens with me that she doesn't understand she becomes quiet.. When I met her my life was in shambles.. I was on peak of my unbalanced mental health.. She wouldn't understand what I was doing, what I was saying.. She'd just sit there with me.. No questions, no answers.. She'd just be there.. "

" You never thought that may be If she understood you, your relationship would've been more clear? " She asked.

" I've come to accept this Sharanya that I may not find a person like me.. A person who'll totally understand what I am.. I believe no relationship can be perfect.. Riva is someone who has decided to be with me despite my imperfections.. So I am gonna be patient where she fails to understand me because many times I fail to understand her.. To understand what she wants from me.. To keep my mental health and to be in my own bubble of safety many times I ignore her expectations and she doesn't say anything.. "

Sharanya was listening carefully.

" So it's like.. You both are not perfect for each other.. Like you have come to the terms that she'll never understand you fully and she knows that you'll never fulfill all her expectations.. Basically You both are holding back your expectations"

Shashank shrugged his shoulders "May be that's how it is.."

"Do you believe on all this?" Sharanya asked "Darkness, the other world, Naveen sir?"

"I wanted to not believe.. But I do" Shashank said "I believe since I talked to my brother"

"You believe that we are to go in world of darkness after our death?" She asked.

"Yes" Shashank said.

"Sir was saying that we have to find ways to be in darkness' favor" Sharanya said as her eyes sparkled "Ways to be more close to him"

"What ways?" Shashank asked.

"He told me that he thinks you have a very strong tie up with the people who are not like us and that is stopping you from complete devotion" Sharanya said "We have to have complete devotion Shashank.. And that's why Sir has asked us and some other people to come and live here for few days"