Bestfriends

Vientekwatro

Lisa

I know I'm drunk, but who cares we occupy the whole floor. I can go wasted all I want and no one would see.

Susuraysuray akong lumabas ng room ni Jennie, nakakahilo feeling ko lumilindol. I love this feeling I love the adrenaline rush the alcohol sent through my viens.

"Hey!!!!" I shout my lungs out as I saw Rosé standing in front of the elevator I just saw how that bitch girl kissed both Rosé's cheeks before entering the elevator.

Muntik pa akong matapilok ng derederetsong lumapit kay Rosé na pabalik na rin.

"What's wrong?" Mabilis niya akong dinaluhan ng masususobsob na sana ako.

"That girl...sheee."

"C'mon let's put you to bed."

"No!"

"Lisa." She gently help me until we reached my room.

"I need to talk to that Marsha...yah Rosé!"

"No need hon, come let me change your clothes hmm?"

Hindi ako nagsalita dahil umiikot talaga ang lahat. I felt Rosé undressing me habang nakaalalay sa likod ko dahil nabubuwal ako kahit na nakaupo na sa kama. She is still my Rosé, the girl I rejected. The girl I didn't choose.

"Give me some wipes."

Agad niya naman akong inabotan niyon pero sa halip na gamitin iyon pinunasan ko ang pisngi niyang hinalikan nong Marsha, baka may naiwan pang germs sa pisngi niya. Nakita ko pa naman ang kapal ng lipstick ng babaeng yon. Psss!

"There." Hinila ko siya palapit sakin saka hinalikan ng ilang beses sa magkabilang pisngi.

Natulala pa siya ng ilang sandali before she chuckles in amusement.

"Sleep with me?"

"I can't." She lay me down to my bed.

"We're still bestfriends we can still sleep together without doing anything, I can still cuddle you we can still spooning. Ayaw mo na ba akong bestfriend?"

Bumuntong hininga siya. "Go to sleep Lisa, your drunk."

"Of course not I'm not drunk! Sleep here please..." giit ko, I even used my cutest tone for her.

"I'll just bath in my room I'll be back to sleep here."

"No! Just bath here use my clothes I always have spare underwear." Baka hindi na siya bumalik kapag lumabas na siya.

She's avoiding me and I don't know what to do.

"Fine, give me a minute."

Kahit anong hilo at antok hinintay ko talaga siyang matapos. Nahiga siya ng nakatalikod sakin, that hurts. She used to kiss me on my cheeks before we realize that we don't want to settle being bestfriends at all but now she even turn her back at me without talking. Pero yon ang gusto ko diba, I choose my career over love this is the consequence of everything.

Hindi ko napigilang kabigin siya sa bewang ng marinig ko ang munting paghikbi niya.

"I'm sorry." I utter in a whisper, I'm hurting her. I hug her so tight I'm afraid to let her go.

"Let's sleep Lisa, stop doing this I'm giving you what you like give me the reason to stand on what you want." Hindi ko napigilan ang pagtulo ng luha ko sa narinig humigpit ang yakap ko sa kanya.

"Just this time let me..." I pause for a second saka isinubsob ang mukha sa batok niya. "Just let me hug you."

Narinig ko ang pagbuntong hininga niya pero hindi na siya nagsalita pa. We stayed umin that position until I fell asleep.