Daniel Seavey I Italy

Chapter 18

7 years later

Today is the most important day in my career as a best friend. Molly is getting married. I was shocked too when I found out. The only person I was sure would not get married is in a white dress crying about everything that could go wrong and that the moon isn't aligned the way it's supposed to or some shit. But if anyone could make her this crazy its Christian Seavey. I have never seen her more in love than when she is with him.

I did miss out on a chunk of their relationship because of things with Daniel and then work. But we never missed a single face time session together and always kept each other up to date. Things with Daniel are not that bad anymore. We stayed friends after that day and after a while became close, we see each other from time to time, but usually if we spend more than twenty minutes together it's because of the lovebirds. We never stopped calling them that, even though that word reminded me of that day every single time. I am quite sure he has a girlfriend or maybe he doesn't. Either way I am not ready for a relationship after Luke, and I swore off of Daniel so today we focus on the lovebirds.

"You know if you just let me take care of everything then you would cry less." I try to calm her down, but that is a tough job. "And if you talked less, I wouldn't want to throw this brush at you." She almost yells. This has been happening for an hour now, so I got used to it. Fortunately, I have not been injured yet. "Sorry, really don't know where that came from." She also immediately apologizes. "It's okay, I understand that this is an incredibly stressful day for you. That is why I am here to help you." There is still an hour left until the ceremony and I would like for her to not go completely insane and actually make it to the alter

"I would like to take my mind off of the wedding by moving on to the subject of you and Daniel. So, have you heard from him? Have you talked at all?" she keeps asking these questions way too often and usually I find a way to dodge them, but as I see today, I do not have that opportunity. "I met him on my way to work last week. We had a coffee. Talked for a bit. Nothing special. I think he might have a girlfriend. He kept trying to say something but couldn't." he seemed off, like something was on his mind. We also kind of stopped talking about romantic partners after I broke up with Luke, so I understand if he doesn't tell me. That's why I am a tiny bit scared to see him today.

"What?! So, he might be coming with a girl today? You know I never really got why you broke up with him. I thought you two would be forever." She said as always with a slight sadness in her voice. "Molly we already talked about this. He was just not the one for me. And we only knew each other for a few weeks and also started dating immediately. That was not what I wanted at the time, and I had other thing I wanted to focus on." I tried explaining even though I didn't actually have a sane reason. "Your answer is bullshit now and its was bullshit then. Kiara, I do understand that perhaps the time wasn't right then. But after a few years I think you would have been ready if he was single, no?" she tries prying again. "Yeah, but he wasn't, and I don't think there will ever be the perfect time. I love him. I loved him then and I will love him till the day I die, but we would not make a good partnership. Molly, I know this doesn't make sense it sometimes doesn't to me either, but that is how I feel, and my decision is final. I can't wait for the day when he gets married, and I can see him happy with someone. I just now that deep down inside that will never be me. And anyway, today is your day so let's not get off track." After my monologue we drank some champagne and tried to calm each other down.

"I'll go check on things downstairs, okay?" I ask opening the door, with her approval I descend down the stairs and see his back. I know that I kind of put myself in this position, but I still wish he wouldn't have this effect on me. As I approach him and stand next to his body that is looking out the window, I feel myself at a loss for words. "You know I always thought we would be first. Guess you were right." I still remember what I said to him on that day.

If you want you can wait, be my friend and hope for a day that may never come, however I cannot promise you that that day will ever come.

"Please don't say shit like that. I thought we were past this Daniel." I started to get mad, we have had this conversation more times than I would like and its starting to make me angry. "YOU were past it Kiara. YOU decided when this ended. YOU were the one that pushed me away. And YOU always decided what I could and couldn't feel. I want to say I'm sorry for saying this, but I'm not." I could hear how hurt he was. I always knew I was the bitch in the situation. I warned him about it, but he kept on showing up. "This is not the time or the place to do this. Daniel please can you just let it go. I beg of you. I don't want to fight anymore. Especially not today and Molly thinks we are besties that get coffee from time to time so can you just act the part?" I was practically on my knees at this point. "You know I see them almost every day and it hurts to know that we had that and then you ripped it away. I understood that you needed time, and I understood that maybe you wanted to focus on other things. But then came Luke and I then finally realized that you just didn't want me. But what hurts even more is that I still drooled over you and gave advice to Luke and tried to make you happy even if it was with me. But then I saw you do the same thing to him as you once did to me. That made me realise that you would never be the same person I met in Italy. We would never have our day and that killed me because every day I ignore all of that and still pine over you with the hope that you will change." His words were like a burning knife going straight through me, but before I could say anything it was time for my duties as the maid of honour. Molly was about to have an incredibly memorable moment unfold and I had to go. "Sure, walk away as usual, that's what you do best." I wanted to turn back fight until both of us were hurting worse than ever, but I fought back the tears and went to get Molly.

"It's time. We need to go. Everything good?" I ask for one last time. "Everything is perfect." At least one of us had our shit figured out. I walked her down to her dad and gave her one last smile before she became a wife. We all got in line. Daniel and I hand in hand pretending to be friends. "I'm sorry. For everything, but I told you what I was feeling. You can't be mad at me for that. I told you couldn't promise anything to you. And Luke was a different situation. I was trying something and as you saw it didn't work out. This isn't the place to talk about this. I have to pack up Mollys stuff up this week. Can we meet at their place and talk?" I thought I would have one last try before this was finally over. "Sure." How sweet of an answer that was.

She looked beautiful walking down the aisle. Christian was crying his eyes out like a little kid. I was happy one of us actually found the courage to stay with someone for the rest of our lives. I was waiting for only one moment the entire day. The vowels. And here they were in all their glory.

Christian was first, because if not he would probably be out cold in a few moments. "The day I met you I think I forgot why and where I was. You were tired and Kiara was dragging you to the car. Even sleepy you were the most beautiful woman I had ever seen. We had many quests planed. Only one failed, but perhaps we can still save it. I can't wait for our future together; I look forward to ever morning I get to wake up to your cute snores that tickle my chest and how you will yell at me every night if I don't go to sleep exactly at ten. I hope we have a long and beautiful life together full of journeys that will take us far away. I love you more than I could ever express." This man really pulled out everything that his brain could muster up. And then with tears trying not to escape her eyes molly had her turn. "I don't really know how to follow that one up. But I will try. I think anyone that knows me is shocked I'm here right now. But I will keep this short. Falling for you wasn't like falling at all. It was like walking into a house and suddenly realizing that you are home. I love you and you will forever be my home." That was actually nothing like what I expected, and it was fucking beautiful.

There was a lot of dancing and alcohol. I honestly don't remember much from the rest of that day. And late at night they drove away to the airport to catch a flight for their honeymoon.