Thanks for the Memories

Heartbreaker

I woke up to hair tickling my nose. I opened my eyes and there was Rin, asleep in my arms. I smiled and wrapped my arms more tightly around him. It all felt like a dream. I closed my eyes again, not wanting to disturb him. I laid there for a while until I felt him start to stir. I stayed still as he tried to quietly slip out of my embrace.
He started to put his clothes on, so I moved to lean on my elbows. "Morning Rin."

Rin flinched at the sound, he seemed surprised that I was actually awake. He turned and smiled at me but it felt forced. "Morning Sousuke."

But still, I got out of bed and, after putting on pants, went over to him and wrapped my arms around him. He curled his hands against my chest, staying silent. I kissed the top of his head, "Want some breakfast?"

"N-no," I could barely hear Rin's response.

I was trying desperately to hold onto last night but it was too late. It was already different. But I couldn't let go. "Rin..." Quiet sobs floated up to my ears. Rin's frame began to shake as he began to cry. Instinctively, I held him tighter but that just made him pull out of my embrace. I stared at him, "Rin."

He quickly pulled on the rest of his clothes, tears freely streaming down his cheeks. He couldn't look me in the eye as he said, "Sousuke, last night was..." He paused to choke back tears, "It was a mistake. I... Have to go." He left my room and started heading for my front door.

I followed him out, starting to feel the anger welling up inside. It was a mistake? I didn't want to believe it. My words stopped him, "So what? You're just going to leave?"

He looked at me, tears turning his eyes red, "I am truly sorry for this."

"Wai-". But it was too late. He had already slipped out the door and shut it behind him. I couldn't get past what he had said. If he was sorry for leaving, then why did he leave. I felt a tightness in my chest and I lost the strength to stand. I collapsed into a chair in my living room. It actually hurt. The pain was so much more than my emotions, I felt it physically. I sat there clutching at my chest, it actually hurt.