☆First Snow☆ | Joshua

11❄️ POWER OF LOVE

Hayoon's POV

After the photoshoot was done I locked myself inside the restroom.

"What's wrong with me? They are nothing but your favourite idols. Why are thinking about that this much?" I told to myself. After a few minutes spent there, I went out and call Areum to check where she is. She was on her way to the company and I said I'll wait for her in the lobby. So I went towards the staircase since the elevators are under repair. I was checking my phone when I bump into someone. "Sorr-" We were at the top of the staircase and if he didn't catch me I could have fallen. I held him tightly. He was strong enough to balance both of us. It was the time I saw him. It was Joshua. Why him again? My hand was on his chest and I could feel his heartbeat. It's familiar. No way!! It can't be. I trailed my hand to his face. I ran my fingers on his eyebrows, eyes, his cheeks and finally lips. They all are the same. The feeling. That's him! No way!! How can it be?? Without my permission tears fell. I was crying without realizing it. I saw his eyes! First time seeing them. I mean I've seen him more than thousands of times on TV, Phone and at concerts, and fan meetings but this is the first time I see him. My first love!

"J-Josh?"

As I said his name, I cried even harder. I saw his eyes filled with tears. I cried as much as I wanted for these 8 years. I hugged him. He lend his shoulder to cry as I wanted. I saw the other four boys and their manager also watching us but I didn't care. All I want is this. As he hugged me back I cried more. I wanted to release the pain I was hiding inside my heart for these 8 years. "I'm sorry Hazz!! I'm so sorry!!" He apologised. Hazz! He called me Hazz!! I've been waiting for years to hear this. "Yes! It's me. It's your Hazz." I said. Can I forgive him? For hurting me? I didn't know. I saw Areum was standing with other boys with a confused look. I can explain to her later. But I can't let him go again. What if I lost him again? As we broke the hug we were staring into each other's eyes.

"I'm sorry! I know I did a huge mistake but I'm sorry"

"I don't know! I can't believe this. You promised to find me. But-"

"I found you! I found you as soon as I came here. But it wasn't you." He whispered the last part but I could hear that. I saw his tears fall. I wiped them with my thumb finger as I held his face with my both hands.

"I'm so sorry Joshua, but it's time to go." Their manager told. Right! He has to go. Their manager didn't want to ruin the moment, but it's his job. So it was fine.

"Ah yeah! Fine, you have to go. I'm sorry." I let him go. "No, that's fine! We can meet again right?" He asked me. "I don't know! I mean yeh- Okay, I'll take my leave then." I was to go when he hold my hand.

"Hazel, let's talk later! Promise me!" He said.

"I promised you to wait and I waited. You promised me that you'll find me again at any cost, but you did never." I said before leaving the place. I know he was hurt by my words.  But it's the truth. 'Aish! Idiot, why did you do that?' I blamed myself. As soon as I went out of the building I went to our apartment. I left a message to Areum saying I'm on my way to the apartment and I apologise for not waiting until she was off.

There was a heavy atmosphere inside the Seventeen's van. No one dares to speak a single word about the situation earlier. Jeonghan asked others to keep it a secret from others and when it'll be the right time Shua will tell everyone by himself and the four of them agreed. Shua was memorising the last thing Hayoon said. 'I promised you to wait and I waited. You promised me that you'll find me again at any cost, but you did never.' It's a lie if he tells it didn't hurt him. It was like an arrow piercing his heart. But he thought he deserves it. He wanted to skip the practice but at the same time, he didn't want to. Maybe practising will help him to forget what happened.