BRITTNEY POV.
After coming back to Dontrell's from the hospital and finding out that I lost my baby was devastating. I just wanted to go into a corner and cry. I just wanted to forget about life and leave the world. I couldn't do that though because I couldn't leave Grayson.
Grayson is asleep and I am currently in bed with him trying to go to sleep. Finally I get out of bed and walk into the living to see that Dontrell is up working from on his cases.
"Seems like you have a lot to do", I said.
"Yea", he said as he looks at me then back at his papers. "Thought you'd be sleep. It's late."
"I couldn't", I replied. "But I didn't come out here to vent. I came out here to sit. Maybe listen to you vent for once if you wanna talk. I don't wanna interrupt your work."
"I can multitask... I was a little lonely in here anyway", said Dontrell.
"Well that makes two of us", I said. "But what's up with you. How you doing mentally? Seem like you keep a lot in. Or is your life is so smooth that you don't have any crazy things going on in your life?"
"...no. Nothing crazy...but I do have something to talk about.", he said.
"Cool. Go ahead", I said.
"....I can pay the bills and I can help you with what I can do...but I can't afford to do everything", said Dontrell.
"Oh yea. I know. I um...well I have access to Carter's money so I can use that and work and that way I can pay you", I said. "I don't wanna use Carter's money for long so...I need to find something quick."
"...Kate needs some help. She could use a server", said Dontrell.
"...okay. I'll talk to her", I said. "I need my face to heal better first. Then I can work."
"Okay", said Dontrell.
"I haven't worked in so long. Everything is going to be so new to me again", I said. "But I'm excited"
Dontrell nods and smiles a little.
"I just wanna say thank you again", I said. "I'll be out of your hair as soon as I can...I would go back to the house but...I can't. I just...I can't. I don't trust myself alone 24/7. Not right now."
"I get it. You don't have to explain anything to me", said Dontrell.
"You're so...understanding. I feel like you're a guy that any woman would be luck to have...I just wonder why you're single", I said.
"Just trying to find that woman any guy would be lucky to have", said Dontrell.
"...and you thought that was me huh?", I asked.
"I still do", he said.
"Mmm", I said as I look away. "You've seen my dark side...the side I try to hide...and you're still interested"
"Everybody has a dark side", he said.
"But you just saw half of mine. I don't want you to see me at my darkest", I said.
"I don't either because I will not let you get to your darkest if you were mine", he said.
I look at Dontrell again. He was still looking at his work.
"Why don't show me?", I asked.
Dontrell looks at me.
"I mean like...when you're ready, we can", he said before looking back at his work.
"I already told you that I- I love you. I'm about to divorce my husband. What else can I say to show you that I'm ready?", I asked.
"...it's not about you showing me that you're ready.", Dontrell replied. "You showed me and told me that you aren't ready."
"Is this about what I said at the bar?", I asked.
"It's about what you've been telling me this whole time and I haven't been listening", said Dontrell. "...you have some things to work on before you get into a relationship."
"How about I work on them with you", I said.
"Britt...don't jump into something you clearly aren't ready for", said Dontrell. "As much as I feel like underneath all of the hurt that you're feeling right now, you are a somebody with a beautiful soul...but I wouldn't be helping you by having you jump into another relationship. Thatll only hurt you at the end. I'm not going to be selfish for my wants and ignore your needs. And you need to find yourself again."
I look down for a moment.
"You're...right", I said. "I just...maybe I'm scared of being alone. Wait that didn't sound right. I want to be with you because I like you but I guess I'm trying to jump into this because I'm afraid to be alone."
"Yea I understand", said Dontrell.
It silence between us for a while. He looked through his case and I looked through my phone.
"I have the papers for your divorce if you wanna look over it before I go to the jailhouse and deliver them to Carter", said Dontrell suddenly.
"You still have them?", I asked.
"Yea", he replied.
"I don't want anything from him", I said.
"Well I have it written in there that you get something so", said Dontrell. "You deserve it. But if you don't want it, you don't want it. At least read over it."
"You're more ready for this divorce than I am", I said.
"You are the one looking at your face right now...maybe I'm a little more pissed about it than you are", said Dontrell.
"I just lost my baby because of them...because I don't show it...doesn't mean I'm not mad...I'm just depressed.", I said.
Dontrell didn't say anything else.
"...I'm going to let you finish up. Goodnight", I said.
"Goodnight", said Dontrell.
"...if you wanna join us in bed...you can. It's more than enough room", I said before talking to his room.
TO BE CONTINUED....
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When the Bough Breaks
General FictionBrittney has been fighting a battle to happiness. When she finally finds that happiness, she has a struggle with holding on to it due to certain obstacles in her life. Read to see how Brittney overcomes those obstacles to get what she wants or break...
