Almost Lovers

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

10:50 am, bumaba ako at pumunta sa sala.

naglatag ako ng mat at kinuha ko ang cellphone ko and there was no notifications.

pinatugtog ko yung Don't Stop para naman magkaenergy ako and then i started to do sit ups.

i already finished the song and i didnt know that the playlist was on shuffle.

Tongue Tied played. it was one of my favorite songs.

hindi ko alam kung bakit iba ang nafifeel ko. But it was sadness.

I wasn't even complaining about the pain while doing curl ups. All I know is that I am uncomfortable.

I tried to find out why, what is the cause of this sadness?. hindi ako masyadong makapagfocus sa pag exercise.

Pero kanina ko pa pala alam kung bakit ako malungkot, pilit ko lang dinedeny sa sarili ko.

I tried to ignore that I am being sad because there was still no message coming from him.

I keep on asking myself why. and then I realized I was already used to chatting with him.

Maybe dahil mas naging close kami ng isa sa mga kaibigan ko sa room. Maybe because I was too bored and then someone came to entertain me who happens to be someone who was also looking for a person who would break his boredom.

And the last reason that I was ignoring and forcing myself not to believe was that I am starting to like him.

I stood up and eat. kumain ako ng mabilis. i have no appetite tho. and then i went upstairs in my room.

I got my earphones and lied down on my bed. Pinatugtog ko ulit yung Tongue Tied.

..

I realized many things.

It surprised me, because I've already admitted in myself, that I already fell for him.

I admit na masaya ako. Masaya ako tuwing kausap ko sya. At masaya rin ako dahil gusto ko sya.

"Eeeeeeh. Jade noooo! hindi pwedee! "

Pagkatapos ay biglang kumulog.

"Ayy!"

I opened my window..

"Really? this early? may bagyo kaya?"

tinanong ko ang sarili ko, 'May bagyo kaya? or is it just tadhana, na nakikisabay sa nararamdaman ko?'

"Agghh. No Jade!"

Bryce is taken. Bryce has a girflriend. And they are everyone's 'one true paring'. Everyone likes them together. Halos lahat ata sa room umaasang sila ang magpapatunay na may forever. Pero noong una, nung third year kasi first time kong maging kaklase si Bryce, hindi ko alam na may girl friend pala sya.

But there's still the side of me na nagsasabing this is fine.

Kasi matagal tagal na kaming laging naguusap. We already know so much things about each other.

I told him na he was already the closest guy friend I have. kasi kung natatandaan nyo pa, sa convo namin, we labeled us as 'bestfriends'. so ano namang masama sa pakikipag chat sa bestfriend mo?

Wala naman diba?

napaface palm naman ako at sinabi sa sarili kong "Pero Jade....."