Significance of Selflove

CHAPTER 28

THE TALK

Yza's POV

Mabilis ang takbo nang araw, kagaya ng laging inaasahan, natapos kami sa training at graduation... 

" Guys section na daw natin for grad pics" 

" kilos na po... pakibilisan. Para makauwi tayong lahat ng maaga"

Sobrang daming nang yare, alam naman naming lahat na mas mabigat na yung mga subjects namin sa college. 

Grabe parang kailan lang, lahat naman ng mga students na nag hihintay nalang ng graduation ganito yung nararamdaman, sobrang bilis. Paano ko na survive ang 7am-5pm na buhay, maghapon ka sa school... just like the old saying HS life is the best, you will experience your first boyfriend, well kung gugustuhin mo naman talagang mag change status HAHAHA and syempre ang mga high school issue competition and all... what a roller coaster ride of emotions and growth. 

Regardless of the life lessons that we gained here, most important is we accept ourselves. 

I learned to accept my flaws and imperfections, for me to feel beautiful, especially when I learned that confusing signals and emotions are not healthy... 

I was stunned when I saw him behind me 

" Yzz.. uhm can we talk?" kasunod ay ang malalim nyang pag buntong hininga, hindi ako sumagot, Im still waiting for the next sentence of him. After few seconds still walang lumalabas na salita sa bibig ni Carl, seems like he is waiting for my response. 

"uhm, yeah. Congrats Valedict..." yun lang ang aking naisagot  

"Yeah uhmm Thank you and for everything, siguro nga mali yung ginawa ko Yzz, I confused you, but trust me you are important to me and---" he was not able to finished the sentence kasi ako na nag tuloy, seems like this conversation is leading to something else. 

" yep, got it... And thank you for making me confused, I learned to accept that, also there must be misunderstandings between us pero its totally fine promise... Im happy to be your friend and learned a lot of things especially loving myself more and afcourse there must be a clear line always... goodluck sa college life see you when I see you." 

I know that all of us are going to different schools, pero mananatili kaming mag kakaibigan... 

" I apologized Yz, Im really sorry... the problem is me, masyado akong nakampante na andyan ka, hindi ko napapansin na ganun na pala, I'll admit takot akong mawala yung friendship and all... you are too strong for me... I really like your personality, I really do but I'm thinking sometimes hindi kita deserve..."

Hindi na ako sumagot, dahil malinaw naman sakin lahat... gaya nga ng lagi nilang sinasabe if he is really into you he will make a way. Tinanggap ko na hindi kami para sa isa't isa baka nga infatuation lang tong feelings ko kasi sya lagi kausap at kasama kong lalaki, ako lang nag assume

Matipid lang na ngiti ang naisagot kay Carl... Ayaw ko na pahabain pa at gusto ko nalang ma enjoy ang picture taking with my other classmate... 

This is it college life lalaban ulit tayo at patuloy na tatanggapin ang mga pag babagong magaganap... Sobrang excitement... 

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