SHE (On hold)

Chapter 16 - The constant

                  

Chapter 16

Ryan POV

I need to stop this from spiralling out of control. It's bad enough that I've been hurt. I cannot let anyone else around me get hurt. It cannot be like this anymore. I have to put an end to this. I have to. I look around the room and I don't see Megan anywhere. I've been awake for a few hours and it does feel slightly better to be awake and well....living. I hear the door open and I see my dad walking in wearing a polo tee and leather jacket with a cup of coffee in hand. I could use some coffee right now. How I've missed good coffee

"Good you're awake. I need your help kid" he mentioned as he took a seat on the couch near the bed.

"I'll see what I can do. And I'm fine by the way. Thanks for asking". Really dad? Your son just woke up from a coma and all you ask his help for your work. The amount of care and concern he shows he has for me is just appalling. Before he could even reply his phone rang. " gotta go now. I'll call when I need you".

This case has seem to have affected him. It is not a matter of if he needs me but when. I'm a little rusty on the field, but hopefully I won't be required for long. I looked at the time. 10 am.. great.

How I've missed eating...I could use a heavy breakfast. The door opened and I saw Megan walking in wearing a long sleeve T-shirt and jeans with a usual brown sling bag around her neck. Before I could say anything she just hugged me.

My body immediately tenses. Well this has not happened in a long time. I sat there cold, for a few seconds, until I hugged her back. And I felt tears on my shoulder. As much as I wanted to deny that I didn't feel anything, I couldn't. I gently rubbed her back as she still held on sobbing. Her hair wasn't neatly combed as usual, a little messy, as if she rushed had rushed her.

It's been awhile since I've been hugged. It's been awhile since someone missed me. It's actually good to know that I actually mean something to someone. It's assuring to some extent to know that my existence is valuable to someone. I feel alive.

" I'm so lost. I don't know what to do. Oh thank god you're alive. " she mumbled while hugging me a little tighter. "shhh, its gonna be okay" I replied while stroking her hair. We stayed that way for a a while longer and finally she let go.

" I'm hungry" I stated while having a glance around the room I was held in. Megan immediately stood up from the couch opposite.." the nest. Breakfast is a major winner over there". I agreed and after a long time I actually looking forward to have some company while eating.

At the nest, we got a nice seat in the corner near the window... I decided to indulge in some pancakes with scrambled eggs and coffee while megan decided to have a croissant, a sunny side up egg and orange juice. Not to be rude but, I distanced myself from the world for the next 10 minutes as I finished gobbling the last of my meal. I can't help but notice how Megan remained quiet while looking out the window. That's unlike her, she's usually more full of life. Before I could ask her what's bothering, my phone could not stop buzzing. I switched it on right before I entered The Nest.

I checked it and surprised to see a bunch of emails, texts and missed calls all from Aunt Summer. She just seems worried about me and my lack of response to her emails. I gave her a reply of assurance and diverted my attention towards Megan.

"Hey" she looks at me. And then I see her. Her light hazel eyes seem so tired and drained. She looks like she has seen the pain of life and the struggles that the world has been through.

" what's wrong?"  she looks away awhile and then back at me. That has been her tell for being nervous.

"No, I'm fine, it's nothing". She said while managing a small smile. "come on Megan,  what has been bothering you?"  It's clearly something major, she is giving some signs: lack of circles, eye bags,mildly bloodshot eyes.