The Church Girl

26.

Tania

It's been a whole week since I left L.A. Haiti is great, I've had fun and met a lot of family members that I didn't even know. I still think about my situation in L.A, but it's brief because my family are always keeping me busy. I was leaning on the balcony, just thinking. Then my grandmother walked outside, and came next to me.

"Cheri koman ye?" my grand mother asked

(Honey, how are you?)

"Mwe tre bien, gran e ou?"i replied

(I'm very well grandma, how about you?)

"Mwe we ou toujou ap panse de yon bagay. Sa w genyen?" she asked curiously

(I notice your always thinking about something, what's wrong?)

"Ah ou konen, pwoblem nomal. Se pa anyen." i said reassuringly

(Oh you know, just regular problems. It's really nothing.)

"Tania se famn mwe ye to, e mwe te jen famn. Li fasil poum we ou gen pwoblem gason." she said laughing

(Tania I'm a woman also, and i was a young woman too. It's easy to tell that you have a man problem.)

"Gran mwe renme li anpil. Mwe bay misye virgintite m. Yon neg ke m te kon pale avek lontan, vine e li komanse manye mwe. Epi menaj mwe vin antre, epi li panse me tap fe yon bagay ak lot neg la." i said sadly

(Grandma, I love him a lot. I gave him my virginity. A guy I used to talk to came and started touching me. Then, my boyfriend came in and he thinks I was doing something with the other guy.)

"Li renme w tout bon si l jalou fasil konsa. Tania, ou pa ka ap kouri, se pou tounen al lakay ou pou pale ak misye." she said

(He really loves you if he gets jealous that quickly. Tania, running away is not going to help you have to go home and talk to him.)

I sat there and thought for a while about what she said, and she was very right. Running away, isn't going to help this situation. I really love Trey, so I'll listen to what he has to say and hopefully he listens to me too. After the conversation with my grandmother, i decided that I would cut the trip short and leave this evening to go fix this problem with Trey. I had all my clothes packed in less than one hour, i said bye to all my family and promised to come see them again with everyone else. After a two hour drive, I was finally at the airport, brought my ticket, and was waiting for my flight number to be called. I decided to finally turn my phone on, and when I opened it my notifications list was filled with calls and text messages from Trey, my brother, Jamila, my parents, and the bit-Chris. I didn't call back or reply to any, I'll do that when I'm in L.A.

"Vol 901 al kanpe nan ling kounye a." the man said in the intercom
(Flight 901, go stand in line now.)

I instantly stood up to go on the line. When I finally found my seat. I instantly fell asleep.

I was woken up by a lady tapping my shoulder lightly.

"Miss you have arrived to L.A" she said politely

"Oh..Thank you." i said with a smile

I stood up after a stretching my arms out. I walked out of the plane and into the airport. Since I didn't tell anyone that I was coming back, I went and searched for a taxi cab. After a little while of searching, I finally found a passenger free taxi cab. While i was on my way to my condo, I thought about calling Trey but I was very hesitant. I decided to take the risk anyway. I called and he instantly answered the phone.

"Baby!"Trey yelled

"Yeah...wassup?" i asked

"Tania...where have you been?" he asked

"I've been away. I would've been gone longer, but I decided to cut the trip short." i said nonchalantly

"T...are you ok?" he asked with concern

"Ive had better days. How are you?" i asked

"To be honest. I've been miserable, sad, depressed. Just every bad feeling in the book baby. When I went back to your condo to talk, you weren't there. That really tore me apart. T...I'm really sorry baby." he said in a sad voice

"Trey you really hurt me, you didn't even give me a chance to explain what you saw. I'm not saying it was right, but I love you too much to do what you assumed I was doing." i said with my voice cracking trying to fight back tears

"I know baby...i know. Can I see you tonight?" he asked pleading

"I guess so..I'm on my way to my condo right now. Just meet me there." i said

"Ok baby, I'll see you in a little while." he said

"Ok." i said before hanging up

The whole ride to my condo, i started thinking about my life...again. I really just wish everything could be okay. But, you can't have your cake and eat it too..right?