*sirius black*
chapter tw: mentions of abuse (bruises, cuts, etc), panic attack, mentions of being killed.
"sirius?" i heard the voice i knew as remus' coming up the stairs.
i knew my door was locked, and i couldnt force myself up. i made whatever noise i could manage from the state i was in, letting remus know where i was, he knew how to pick my lock anyway.
"sirius?" he said again while the lock clicked slightly and the door swung open. i saw remus standing in the doorway looking around my room, until his eyes landed on me.
he rushed over to me and fell on his knees. he grabbed my face to keep my eyes on him and breathed slowly.
"what happened?" he whispered. i shook my head and turned my eyes downward. he got up and left my room, soon returning with regulus and locking the door.
"ri?" regulus asked.
"do you know what happened?" remus asked.
regulus nodded slowly.
remus knelt infront of me and grabbed my face again. he studied my facial features, he didnt know what to do.
"fuck my mom helps me with these things. um." he started. "right! siri, name 5 things you can see in this room."
he lightened his grip on my face so i could move my head. i looked around my room and only slight whimpers came out.
"its okay ri, you can do it!" regulus encouraged. "what about me and remus? you can see us right?"
i nodded and remus smiled at me. "thats good! two down, three more to go. what about your posters on the walls? the acdc, queen, and nirvana posters??"
i nodded again.
"good! your bed? maybe your dresser or jackets on your door?" regulus said.
"jacket" i stuttered.
remus nodded. "good job ri, what about 4 things you can feel?"
i moved my right hand to my shirt sleeve, then to the socks i was wearing.
remus nodded again. "anything else?"
i grabbed his sweater, then touched my hair.
"thats good! whats next?" regulus said. "oh, three things you can hear?"
"voices." i managed. "music."
"youre doing perfectly sirius, 2 things you can smell." remus encouraged.
"you." i breathed. "pumpkin candle."
he nodded quickly and wiped a tear falling from my eye with his thumb. "and one thing you can taste?" he asked
i licked my lips and moved my tongue around in my mouth, but tasted nothing. i looked up at him. he placed his hand on the back of my neck and kissed me.
"now?" he asked.
"you." i finished.
he moved his hand down my back and started rubbing circles. "deep breaths ri, youre okay."
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Secrets || A Wolfstar AU
Фанфикin which sirius has to figure out who he truly is. where remus has to learn some things aren't possible. will remus survive his first year at lonia highschool? or will he fail at fitting in.
