Somewhere Only We Know

Chapter 13

I knew my health was starting to hurt Luke and I's relationship. It was always either us really happy with one another or us arguing over something stupid. Today ended up being an argument day.

Luke was sitting at the kitchen table, working on some of his homework. I was lying on the couch, watching from afar. He looked adorable with his glasses on.

"Luke, can we please cuddle?" 

"I have homework to do." He didn't even make eye contact with me, instead, he kept his gaze on his laptop.

"Please."

He sighed and looked over at me. "I have to finish this. I'm already doing horrible in this class."

I sighed. All I wanted was a little bit of love. 

"Come on. Take a small break and finish it later." My voice sounded a bit bratty at this point.

"No. I have to finish this. Why don't you go bother someone else."

I felt my heart drop and my jaw clenched. "I have no one else. And you know that." My voice slightly raised as I stood up.

Luke groaned, shutting his laptop harshly.

"Not everything is about you, Marie."

"I just want to cuddle. I haven't seen you all day. I'm stuck here at home every fucking day. Do you know how much that sucks?" 

"You're stuck at home for a reason. It's for your safety." Luke was now standing as well. 

"Don't tell me something I already know. I've lived with this disease my whole life. You barely know anything."

Luke let out a groan. "You act like I have no idea what is happening. I'm scared out of my mind Marie. I watch your every move, hoping you don't fall or stop breathing in front of me."

My mouth stayed shut as I looked at him. I looked him up and down, his chest rose and fell quickly. His eyes pierced right through mine. I could feel the anger growing inside of me. I clenched my fists and stared right back at him.

"I can't do this anymore. I can't do this back-and-forth shit."

"So what? You're giving up on us over this?" I could hear the pain in his voice.

My eyes left his and I kept my head down. "I think you should go."

Everything felt like it was happening so fast around me. One second, we were standing in my kitchen arguing, the next I was sitting in my room crying my eyes out. I know I fucked up. When my mom got home, she asked me what had happened. I didn't want to tell her, but I didn't have a choice.

"First love always hurts the most." She said, holding me close while playing with my hair.

"It's my fault that we broke up." I said once I had calmed down a bit. Mom brushed the hair off my face and sighed.

"Relationships are not easy. Both people need to put in equal effort."

I nodded. "What if it wasn't the right decision?"

"You have to give it some time Hun. You're going through a lot right now. Managing a relationship right now does not seem like the right thing to do."

When mom left, I laid in bed for hours staring at the ceiling. Her voice repeated over and over that I shouldn't be in a relationship right now. I turned on my side and held my pillow tight, wishing that it was him.

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Surprise! Finally had the motivation/time to update. I'm going to try and start writing more since I'm on winter break for the next month.