Taming the demon

Chapter five

Mia's POV:

The Moon that shines

Under the darkness of the night,

Why does it seem gloomy and sad,

Under the silence of the dark.

Peering over the moon, strange thoughts kept intriguing me. Is it today or does this moon always seem this sad and lonely? The blanket of the night was void. No stars were present to accompany the moon. All alone. Like me. Under the influence of the night, I learned to keep my secrets hidden until I can share them with the moon in silence. But these days the night that used to be my dream turned into a nightmare. I feel like something is lurking in the shadows, ready to peep into my thoughts. It's been a week since I had that strange nightmare. Ever since. That same nightmare kept on haunting me. Every time I think about those penetrating eyes, a chill slithers through my body. The hairs on my arms and neck prickle. And a cold wind escapes from my side. I shudder. I went to my dressing table and looked at my reflection in the mirror. My face was looking paler than before. My eyes felt empty. I wouldn't say I don't feel any emotions that I'm empty inside cause then I'll be only lying to myself. I do feel every emotion inside even if I don't show it or pretend to hide it but I do cause I have a beating heart that always reminds me of my existence. Reminds me of the time I was something else. And right now I'm feeling profound anger, sadness, and revulsion. It's like Tiny sharp needles pricking inside my mind. My heart-rending. I felt a storm already raging on the precipice of my eyelids. I opened the drawer as tears dripped unconditionally. An unbearable pain thudded inside my chest. I searched through my accessories until I found a sharp pointed broken shard hidden between them. I found it in the kitchen last week when a girl broke a glass of water. I tugged a piece surreptitiously. I slowly bring it to my wrist. I clutched the piece in my hand before I moved over my wrist extensor where I had been giving myself cuts. A part away from the veins. Yes, I'm scared. I'm a coward who can't finish her story once and for all. A coward who is too afraid to take her own life. I slit the flesh and a streak of blood slowly took shape on my wrist extensors. Pain surged through my arm. It distracted me from the pain I'd been holding inside. At this point, even the blood was looking like beauty to me, sparkling under the moonlight. I felt weak and my eyes drooping. I wrapped a handkerchief around my cut and pressed it tightly to stop the bleeding. I lay down on my bed. Soon my eyelid fluttered shut as Sleep decided to show up to me.

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"Let's go Alina" I dragged the girl beside me from the shop. We both are on shopping duty today. She's my best friend or should I say my only friend in the pleasure house. This morning I woke up with a slight fever and weakness. Madam Ching, when it comes to her investment life she takes very good care of us as she couldn't afford any kind of loss in business. One might mistake her for a motherly figure, but we know what an evil woman she is. She only cares about her money. She got me tended to and made sure I was feeling better before throwing me into this duty to also punish me for not taking care of myself. I remember her words clearly from early afternoon.

"You better should take care of yourselves as this life of yours doesn't belong to you but me...This beauty of yours! What a waste it is if there will be no one to admire it, to take advantage of it so be blessed. I gave you a reason, a shelter, and a life. I bought you, your body even your breaths."

Luckily she doesn't know about my cuts or I can't even imagine what punishment will await me. This woman doesn't know the difference between lust and admiration as she doesn't know the difference between passion and assault.

"Please Mia, let's stroll a bit." She clung to my arm. I shook my head at her. If Madam Ching found out she'll be very angry. And those trolls are still behind us at a distance, glued to us like a leech.