SMITTEN || J.JK

13| Ignorant

My eyes don't rise to glance anywhere except the man who heads us towards the basketball stands while my mind fails to function properly. There is a grim silence between us but danbi's word latch cruelly in my chest bringing ache and heavy exhales. I don't know what to think anymore, who to believe because at this point, I'm in no place to assort the thoughts troubling my head. My hand loosens to reside the clothes next to me, my chest expanding with sharp breaths as a strange tension arises in my body."How are you feeling?",The person beside me decides to break the silence, startling with his concern."I don't know…. It's just a lot to take in.",The tears threaten to reveal my weak state again so I don't match my gaze with him. I almost felt myself at the edge of breaking into a panic attack until he handled the situation, who was the last person I had expected to intervene considering how we have never talked much except exchanging a few words.

"It's understandable. The way she behaved and cornered you…it was total madness, a pathetic one. I would have sewn her mouth shut before she even spoke a word if I was there but I want you to know that the stuff about you, jungkook or the both of you, none of that is true.", He makes my pupils shoot at him, appalled and unconvinced at the same time. His actions themselves come as a surprise and now he's confusing me even more with this.

"You aren't saying this because you're his friend, right? I know how boys have each other's back but this would only make it worse if you're doing that for him because I'm…. I'm honestly tired, mingyu…",My voice falters so I swallow a gulp of air down my throat.There's no will in me to face anyone at the moment, exhaustion is only soaring after the incident back in the gym, leaving me everything but confident about all the emotions I felt in the past few days about jungkook. As if he has taken the cue to elaborate his words, mingyu flashes me a look of firm belief.

"I know he has a reputation of being seen as the centre of attention amongst everyone here and it's only right when girls throw themselves at you with the flick of an eye. I won't give you false hopes because I haven't honestly figured out the equation between you two, which I don't want to intervene between by any means but if there's one thing I can say for sure, it's that jungkook doesn't play with someone's feelings. He has always been clear on his part and as much as I've seen you two hanging out in school, he is, not in any way, fucking around with your friendship. You can trust me on that.",he clears his throat, emitting a deep sound.He doesn't sound skeptical, nor dubious which is a promising sign."It seems like you know him well.",I lick my lips, feeling conscious of this conversation now that things are out in the open. What a unique way to start the first real conversation between us!

"Been friends with that jerk since middle school, through thick and thin and honestly",His eyebrow arches,"I thought he was an asshole at first but he grows on you pretty soon, once you discover his feelings and heart.",I have no doubts about the latter, learning how I had seen his gentle and considerate behaviour which constricts my chest with the similar longing again. For some reason, I had felt myself submitting to the relief and comfort his arms offered me, the peace that I begged from god a few minutes ago. The accusations didn't matter much but it's the fact that I tasted heartbreak with even a pinch of them turning out to be true.

"You're a good girl,y/n. You don't deserve whatever happened back there just because some girls are jealous and insecure of you. You're a lot different from them. In a good way.So don't give it much thought or stress about it and as for jungkook….Well, I suppose you should follow your instincts, try to talk to him or something.",He advises like a sweet friend and I'm grateful for his presence that keeps me afloat from drowning into worthless conclusions. "Can you do me a favour?",I make his eyes glint at me,"Please don't tell jungkook about this. I can't handle things going down after he gets to know about what she said.", I'm not sure if he'll go insane after hearing about my insult or his, either way, I can't afford another avalanche in my normal routine.The past few days have been eventful, as if my life has joined a new path which gives me mixed feelings.