Taehyung's pov:
I sighed after realising that this was real.
I didn't want to do it.
No.
I hated it. I didn't want to go.
"Taehyung, come down here, we'll be late." my mother's voice broke me out of my trance and I looked up to meet her wide eyes.
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING??" she immediately charged at me but I was quick to act. Seeing me quicly sit up, she slowed down and gently added, "come, its time"
"Is it really neccesary? I don't want to do it." I pleaded.
"yes. don't worry, it will be okay."
"but mom-"
"Taehyung! quit it" she glared at me and I lowered my head following her on the way out.
The truth was that I wasn't okay and I didn't think I would ever be. Mom and dad were trying to fight it and here I was acting like a lunatic. I have to be more responsible for them, for naeun, I have to fullfil my last promise to him.
"let's go" mom announced once we reached the bottom of the stairs.
I made my way to the car and sat quietly. The car ride was silent. I liked silence. It was better that way. I didn't want anyone to ask me questions, I didn't have an answer.
We entered the building and made our way towards the receptionist who asked me to follow him. Mom stayed behind while he took me to the doctor's clinic.
My parents insisted on taking me to some doctor who was also a pscyhologist but I wanted my health issues to be unknown. They were already dealing with so much, I don't want to add on to it.
The receptionist pushed open the door for me to enter and gestured me to go inside. I mumbled a quick 'thank you' and walked inside after taking a deep breath.
"good morning, I'm Han Sohee, it's a pleasure to meet you." she greeted.
"nice to meet you too, sohee, I'm Kim Taehyung." I smiled back.
"so as I have been told you have shown symptoms of depression and loneliness. am I right, taehyung? I need you to be honest, for your parent's sake." she asked.
Okay.
I'll be honest with you. For their sake.
"I am not lonely sohee, however, for the depression part, it's true. I have even tried to end my life because I was at fault. I killed an innocent person. it was all because of me."
"I need you to tell me who this person is and how are you related to him?"
"he-he was my brother. my younger brother. I killed him. that bullet was for me.. I should have..." I choked and coughed while remembering that brutual past. My breathing became heavier and my eyelids started dilating.
Sohee quickly gave me a glass of water. I drank all of it and took deep breaths to calm myself. However, the silence was defeaning. For, the first time it scared me. It seemed like that day all over again.
