Just friends

Chapter 23- Just Deflecting

Tristan

I leave Harper's house and see that I'm rock hard. As much as I wanted to fuck her into next week.. If I were to show anything that wasn't just pleasuring her, then it would be over and I would have already been out the door 20 minutes earlier.

Plus I wanted to make it about her and I knew once I got home I would be taking a very, very long shower for my own pleasure imagining it wasn't my fingers inside of her but actually me.

I didn't think she would keep kissing me and had no idea it would turn into that but I tried to enjoy it like it was the last time I would see her again. Which it might be if she ends up making a decision to not be with me even though there's nobody in our way.

But I think it's her. I think she's getting in her own way because she's so focused on helping out everyone else other than herself. Only if she knew how much she really deserved.

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I get home to see Matt sitting on the couch with Sarah.

"How'd it go?" Matt asks. I don't want to stuff Harper and I in his face. Even if there isn't a 'her and I', I don't want to make him uncomfortable so I change the subject.

"Thought you guys would be over at Sarah's? Plans change?" I walk into the kitchen no longer trying to make eye contact. Still somehow feels like I have to keep it a secret even though I shouldn't have to.

"Tris we agreed you didn't have to lie about it. Well you're not lying just deflecting. Dude you've gotta give up with trying to keep things from me." He lectures and I know he's right.

"Fine man you are right I just don't want to make you feel the need to act like it's okay. I understand if you aren't happy about it." I let him know.

"I told you I'm fine with it. You've gotta chill with this overthinking thing because Harper doesn't fuck with that. I was with her for two years I know what she is and isn't into." He tells me and it makes me think about the whole thing even more.

"What even happened between you two? I mean two years was a long time and you two didn't seem very heartbroken after things ended." I ask.

"I think after our one year we kind of... drifted I guess? We became different people. We both slowly got more comfortable with college and it was our sophomore year. Things started fresh when college had just started and I think we still needed each other but just as friends. Not romantically. I think we were just denying it." He explains. "Now. Explain to me what happened with Harper." He smiles and walks into the fridge grabbing the orange juice.

"She still hasn't made a decision on her and I yet because she still doesn't believe everything is good with you and us. And- HEY that's the last of our orange juice asshole, you are going to be the one on duty for groceries this week." I yank the carton out of his hands and we split what's left of the orange juice.

"Don't get on me you're the one that's hogging it all of the time. But don't worry about it, I'll go over to her place tonight and let her know what you and I both talked about." He assures before drinking from his glass.

"She's working tonight so you'll have to let her know tomorrow." I say and he hits me in the back of my head.

"Her workplace is 5 minutes from here I'll just go in idiot and explain so then the faster I get to her, the faster you'll get laid because god Tris for months you've been a little bitch whining and complaining. New something was up when you weren't 6 feet into some girl." He jokes.

I mean he is right, every girl that went up to me at parties or such and asked not that smoothly to go somewhere 'alone'. My dick had no feeling, not a twitch, nada. Harper was the only one subconsciously in my dumb brain of mine that I wanted and after they broke up it made it harder to want sex with anybody else.