new year's eve
ever since the night i got dumped i just grew...silent.
the entire first week, i didn't leave my house. i rarely picked up calls or answered texts. however, i did shoot a small "merry christmas" to everyone on christmas but that was about it. i didn't go anywhere. hell, i rarely left my bed. i felt like shit and i had no motivation to do anything whatsoever.
awsten attempted to call every day. i usually just let it ring. i needed time to think. i got myself into a huge emotional mess and i didn't know how to navigate it.
by new year's eve, i was feeling significantly better. i was able to pull myself out of bed and make phone calls to people i had been ignoring. i spent the entire week previous just mourning my relationship with josh, but by then the pain was dulled. the only pain i still felt was the guilt for how things ended. but, who knew if that'd ever go away anyways?
when i opened my messages i saw at least a million of them from awsten. i mostly ignored them when i shot him a merry christmas message but there were a ton more following that one. i knew that just texting him "hey" wasn't enough and that i should probably just call him.
"y/n!" awsten answered after only two rings. i let out a small laugh at his excitement.
"hey, long time no talk." i said. "how are you?"
"i'm good, now that i know you're at least alive. i was getting kinda worried when the only thing i heard from you for the past ten days was just 'merry christmas'. but, how are you though?"
"i'm better, now. i'm sorry that i was ignoring you. i was ignoring everyone, honestly. i just needed time to think and stuff."
"that's completely understandable, i'm glad you're feeling better now. hey, if you feel like going out, jawn and daphne are throwing a new year's eve party and if you want you can be my plus one."
i thought for a moment. realistically, it would be beneficial to get out of the house. i hadn't gone out since the night of my birthday party. i was also feeling a lot better, so going to the party wouldn't hurt.
"yeah, that doesn't sound too bad." i decided. i could practically hear awsten's smile through the phone.
"alright, can i pick you up at 7:30 then?" he asked me.
"sounds good to me! see you then, aws." i confirmed.
"see you then, jellybean."
awsten hung up and i got up. i really, really needed a shower. i also wanted to finish up his christmas present so that i could give it to him. so basically, i had a lot to do.
i started with the shower. i went into my closet and grabbed a cute but simple black dress and fishnets to go underneath. i then grabbed my speaker and walked into my bathroom to shower.
i showered quickly, as it was already about 3 pm and awsten would be there in only a few hours. when i finished my shower, i got dressed and blow dried my hair. i then curled it, so that it at least looked decent.
i then did a simple makeup look which only took me about fifteen minutes. when i was ready, i got my doc martens on and went over to the desk by my bed.
i got the things for awsten's christmas present and i began finishing it up. it was handmade but i knew he'd like it anyways. it was something that came from my heart and meant a lot to me, as cheesy as that sounded.
by the time the present was ready and i was ready, it was already seven. i went out to my living room and waited for awsten, patiently. i was kind of excited to get out and see my friends. i honestly missed them a lot.
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Fanfictionyou and awsten grew up together. you fell in love and dated throughout highschool. but when you had to move away for senior year, you two were separated and never saw each other again. that was, until ten years later. --------------------- thesoftes...