back to you//[a.k.]

★ 𝐭𝐰𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐲-𝐟𝗼𝐮𝐫 ★

two months later

today was the day.

today was the day that waterparks was releasing their fourth album, greatest hits. the boys were stoked, to say the least. it was exciting to see the fans go insane over the songs and start to state their favorites so far. i was really excited for people to hear fruit roll ups, the song that awsten wrote for me. even though he told me that a few songs from the other albums were actually about how he felt when he was with me when we were younger, this just felt more personal somehow.

we planned to have a listening party at jawn and daphne's to celebrate, which was where we were then. we put the greatest hits cd in jawn's radio and he turned his speakers up. that morning, daphne and i had made cookies, so everyone was eating them all.

"i'm geoff and i'm otto nose ringing it." awsten sang. i just shook my head and rolled my eyes at him.

"you should get your nose pierced. or a septum ring." i told him. i genuinely did think he'd be able to pull it off. hell, he could pull anything off.

"yeah, i think i'm good. i'll just stick to being the band member that just dyes his hair." he replied. i just shrugged and kissed his cheek.

"just an idea."

suddenly, i felt my face grow really hot and i was nauseous. i looked at awsten with wide eyes.

"i'll be right back, i gotta use the bathroom." i told him, speed walking myself to jawn's guest bathroom.

i stood over the toilet and completely emptied my stomach. i guess you could say i tossed my cookies. i stood there for about a minute and a half just vomiting.

it had been like that for about three days. i knew it had to be some kind of stomach bug or something but usually that only lasted like two days. there was another idea but i didn't really want to consider that.

but, i didn't really have a choice, did i?

i could be pregnant. it was a slim possibility but it was possible. i mean, i was on the birth control pill and usually we remembered a condom. but, there was a chance that i missed my pill and he forgot a condom on the same night. it wasn't impossible.

when i was done throwing up, i flushed the toilet and rinsed my mouth out with water. i then straightened myself out and returned to my friends.

"you okay?" awsten asked me.

"i don't really feel well." i replied, frowning. "do you mind if i take the car home and come get you when you're ready?"

"we can just go if you want, sweetheart. it's okay." my fiancé assured me. i simply shook my head.

"no, no, you celebrate your fourth album release with your friends. i'll be fine at home, i got this. just call me and i'll come pick you up."

"are you sure?"

"yes, aws. just call me."

i kissed him on the cheek and then said goodbye to everyone before getting my shoes on and leaving. i went out to my car and turned it on, making my way home.

except, i wasn't going home. not immediately. the thought of being pregnant was eating at me and i just had to know. i couldn't just stay wondering, letting the stress eat me alive.

i stopped at cvs and went inside. i went to the front counter where they had pregnancy tests and grabbed three. but, instead of checking them out right there, i went to self checkout. it just felt embarrassing buying them. not that anyone would really have a reason to judge me. it wasn't like i was a teenager.