Whims

What's on your mind?

What's on my mind...

Everybody at home is sleeping right now except me...

What should I do now?

I can't sleep. Something is bothering me...

My thoughts... they keep haunting me..

Not just simple thoughts.. thoughts that can torn me apart, break me into pieces.

Thoughts that make me lose myself.. Thoughts that pushes me to harm myself...

They are so loud, but I'm the only one, who can hear them...

Back then, when they were around, I'm scared to them, but now I used to love them.. 

I've loved the feeling that they've brought to me.. and that is pain... 

Cause it make me feel again, apart from being numb... at least I know that I'm still alive.. 

But I'm still useless though.