Whims

Thank you

If I die today, I'll be thankful.

I will not question God, why.

No one expected me to reach this age anyway.

Maybe those years were enough.

To be honest, I can't see myself in the future.

And I always feel like I'm on the verge of dying anyways.

Maybe I'll regret not seeing everyone I love as they grew older. As we.

But then, I just feel dead already.

I feel like I'm living pointlessly.

I'm grateful for the life that I had, the life that God has lent me.

Thank you for letting me live with the family I'm in; I love them so much.

Thank you for letting me meet a lot of people in my life whether they were good or bad.

Thank you for letting me meet the person that I love right now, so that in my last years I felt what real love was - unconditional.

And I apologize for the times that I will not be here with all of you.

I wish I could stay.

I really wish.

I tried.

Believe me this time, please?