The kingdom

chapter eighteen

(Carson's POV)

Zayn and I enter the castle. I've missed it here,I wonder how Zayn's father is. As if my mind is answered around the corner comes Yaser Malik. I look up at him with a smile,he drops his chip and opens his arms and I run to him and hug him.

We laugh as we hug and he spins us around and I wince on impact,he sets me down in worry and I shake my head holding back tears. "I'm so sorry,I didn't mean to-" I cut him off "no,no I'm fine I promise." He smiles and says "I've missed you Miss.Carson."

I giggle "well,I've missed you too Mr.Malik." He smiles and cleans up his chip and says "make sure he eats.....He hasn't eaten since he came home and you were gone......the most he ate was some bread." I take a sharp breath and whip around to see zayn standing there smiling at me in bliss.

I look back at yaser and smile while nodding. "Will do sir." He smiles and the leaves us in the kitchen. I look at zayn and realize just how bad he looks. He has purple dark circles under his eyes from lack of sleep,he's lost a lot of wait,I mean he wasn't big to begin with but, I can see his bones now. His eyes lost their glow.

I frown and he looks up and then looks at me puzzled "what's wrong love?" I look down and sigh "zayn,when was the last time you ate?" He gulps looking down at his hands "ummm,like four days ago,why?" I gasp and walk to him and grab his face "zayn!!......how could you do that to your self!" He frowns "eating was the last thing on my mind."

I frown and walk to the cabinet and pull out some pasta noodles and sauce,I start to make the spaghetti. Zayn walks behind me as of slice the bread and make the garlic loaf. He wraps his hand around my waist and puts his head on my shoulder sighing. "I'm sorry babe." I sigh and stop cutting the bread,and turn to face him.

I rest my hands on his shoulders and he leans his forehead on mine and we stare into each others eyes. "Zayn,I jousting understand why you wouldn't eat,I could've waited." His face turns hard and his grip on my hips tightens slightly "NO!,you couldn't have!....can you not see how much I love you,and need you here with me,I would rather die than not have you,so don't you dare say you could've waited!"

(Play song here:D)

My eyes widen and I stare at him "zayn,don't ever say that you would want to die for me,I mean im flattered but I need you too!....and I'm sorry if I'm being a bitch,but like........I care,and love you just as much as you love me!" His face softens,along with his eyes,and he presses his lips to one and I kiss him back roughly and he groans,and lifts me on the counter knocking over all my cooking tools.

I guess he liked that. I lay down on the counter and he climbs on to me and rakes his hands on my sides. God he is hmmmm,bad,this us very bad but sooo good! Zayn bites my bottom lip slowly tugging it and I moan,he smirks and lightly traces his tounge on my bottom lip. I open my mouth further for him to have easy access to my mouth.

He sits on the counter and pulls me up to straddle his lap. I rake my hands through his hair and pull he throws his head back slightly groaning a low sexy groan and that's enough for me to just want him in the kitchen.oh,so many, many,many impure thoughts right now.

Zayn pulls away and stares at me with wide eyes and smiles "woah .......that was intense." We laugh and sit on the counter. "Yeah because if you knocking all of my dinner on the floor we have no food!" He laughs as I lightly his chest. He grabs my wrists and says "come on love,let's go out to eat tonight."

I nod and he says "come." I nod and he leads me upstairs so he can shower and change. I decide I want to change and shower as well so I knock lightly on the bathroom door and peak my head in side. Damn!,that was a shitty idea. He is standing there shirtless and has a tiny red towel wrapped around his waits hanging loosely and is shaving at the mirror.

His hair is wet,which means he already showered. My mouth falls open at the sight if him, how can he get anymore beautiful,and he's shaving! "Umm zayn?" He turns to me and smiles mentioning for me to come in. I walk in closing the door behind me and I turn back around slowly and see that he is standing leaning against the wall wiping the excess cream and smirking at me.

"Hey beautiful." His voice is seductive and husky. "Hi,um I just came in to say I'm going to shower and put on different clothes." He smirks walking over to me and leans his body against mine. Yeah all my breath,gone. I take a sharp breath and look up at him "I love you." I giggle "I love you too."

He picks me up by my waist and puts me on his bathroom counter. He stands in between my legs and holds my sides smiling. He leans up and says "you know, I like this dress on you." I smile and look,down at it "really?...good I hoped you would,Harry bought it for me." His face hardens and he takes me off the counter and I frown he walks me to the door and says coldly "go change."

He slams the door in my face and I stare at it in shock and sadness. What the hell?!?.....He was fine and now he's being an ass! I storm to my room and quickly shower in five minuets and change into a tight black v-neck shirt and a pair of white skinny jeans.

I pull my hair into a high pony tail and look at my self satisfied and grab my phone zayn must've put here and leave my room,not waiting for zayn to get me. I leave the castle and go to the garage, there are tons of cars. Why don't I just borrow one for now? I don't even care what zayn thinks he clearly doesn't care anyways.

I walk to the key rack and pick a set of keys,one catches my eyes and I take it. The chain of the keys has a beautiful stallion. I take it and push the lock button and lights flash at me. I look to my right and see a dark blue mustang that is coated with light glitter and a white strip on the sides and one in the center of the hood.

I smile at it and rush to it quickly,I hop in and the leather seats are very smooth and cool against my skin. I start it up and the engine roars to life. I pull out of the garage and pull towards the front and see zayn running around outside with a panicked face. He spots the car and runs towards it and I roll down the window and his face hardens.

"WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM CARSON?!?" I sit there not even caring that he is yelling at me. His mood swings are all over the place and in sick of it. "Are you going to fucking answer me?!?" I shake my head and he walks to the passenger side and I take off and he is pushed into the back of his seat.

"WHAT THE HELL?!?....SLOW THE FUCKING CAR DOWN!" I ignore him for a while.....He screams at me to slow down and that I'm being stupid and I could kill us. I don't care I've been put through so much shit lately and no one even cares. I make a sharp turn to the side making the car drift to a stop.

Zayn looks at me with so much anger and takes a deep breath. "Carson.......are you FUCKING INSANE?!?" I sit there staring off into space and I get out and slam the door and walk down the road and I hear a door slam and heavy foot steps like running.

I feel a rough and on my shoulder and it pulls me to face zayn. He engulfs me in a large hug that I don't return "babe......please tell what's wrong I can help I just-just need you to tell me." I look up and frown in anger "there is no point,it's not like you care anyways!" I snap and zayn looks taken back "what,of course I care."

I shake my head "what the hell did I do to you in the bathroom, huh?!?.....we where fine until you had to get all pissy with me." He frowns and let's me go "look,I'm sorry I didn't mean to be a dick-" I cut him off "yeah,well you were!"

He chuckles and looks down "yeah.....I was jsut mad because Harry likes you,and you were oblivious to it and he bought you gifts and stuff that you loved." My face softens zayn,I don't care I love you. "Zayn,you're an ass for yelling at me and kicking me out of your bathroom for no reason,but....I don't care if Harry likes me,because I love you."

He laughs and nods "well good because you're mine and you always will be." I nod "damn right." We kiss and I get back in the driver seat and zayn stops "oh hell no,give me the keys I'm never letting you drive again." I laugh and shake my head "zayn I was angry driving I'll be fine as long as you don't piss me off."

He shakes his head and says "no,nope,no I'm driving." I scowl "zayn shut the fuck up,and get in the car." He laughs and gets in the car while giving me directions to a Italian place.