!!BEING REWRITTEN!!My brain, body, and bones are true

Issues(Exs and Voices)

TW:(Light) mentions/topics of d3ath, uncensored swears(honestly these are gonna be every chapter so I might stop putting the warnings) like two mentions of a g-n
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Fwhip's back.

I didn't expect his reaction to being fired.

He called me corrupt, refused to give up his badge, teased me.

It took everything in my power to not shoot him.

I had to distance myself from the other empires after I accidentally killed Joel. I didn't want a repeat of that.

I didn't want to appease the voice in my head. I didn't want to loose control. I'd fought so, so hard to keep myself in control over the listener inside me who would rather see the world burn. I didn't want to give up that self-control. Not after I worked so hard to get where I am now.

I told him to give me his badge and leave. A simple request. And yet he still didn't comply.

At one point I put my hand on my gun, but I didn't draw it. I think he just thought I was resting my hand on it, because he didn't flinch back.

I'm grateful for that. As far as I'm aware, only me and Joel know exactly what happened. I don't think False knows. I think she just knows I shot him.

When he finally left, I heard footsteps from behind me. I whipped around to see Scott stood there.

"Howdy Sherrif!"

"Scott? What do you need?"

Normally Scott would only come over here when Joel did. Or he'd sneak around. I rarely see him out in the open and starting a conversation with me alone.

"What did you do to Joel? I noticed he hadn't been coming over here anymore and when I asked him about it he sounded scared when I mentioned your name."

I froze. Scott wasn't supposed to know. Hell! Nobody was supposed to know. I wasn't even supposed to do it.

"Uhm- I don't know what you mean. I just thought he finally wanted to stop teasing me. I don't know why he'd be scared."

Normally me and Scott can tell when each other are lying. Him more so. But not today. My voice was steady and I sounded genuine. I laced it with confusion.

I felt bad lying to Scott. I really did. But it's what needs to be done.

"Oh. I guess I can ask False then? Joel mentioned that she was online as well when something which he called "the incident" happened."

Here's where I started to panic. If he asks False, she'll tell him that I shot Joel. And then he'll come back here. He'd probably be afraid. He'd ask me about it. Shit. No. He can't find out- if he finds out he'll tell everyone.

Jimmy?

Jimmy!?

Jimmy!!

"JIMMY!!"

I looked to Scott, a worried look on his face.

"You alright? I've been calling your name for the past five minutes."

"Huh? Oh yeah! I'm perfectly fine. I just don't know what you'd get from False because I haven't talked to her within the past few weeks in person. Assuming whatever this 'incident' was was in the past few weeks I'm not sure what False would know!" I kept my voice steady again. I didn't want him to pick up on my lies.

He furrowed his eyebrows and frowned.

"Right. I guess I could ask Joel more about it. But I don't know- he seemed pretty shaken up about whatever it was."