Amour

Chapter 28. Lost in Thoughts

A/n: Sorry for the long wait, I got caught up in some chores I needed to finish aka cleaning my room lol it was a mess since I reorganized them anime figures 🥲 Today's chapter is a bit longer tho 💛💛 

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I woke up several days later. Unfortunately, I woke up to even unhappier news. While Bakugou was saved, All Might had retired, AFO was captured but the rest of the villains escaped... meaning Dabi was now on the run. 

This wasn't a dream. It was all true. Most of it that is, I'm not sure if Dabi is really Touya... I don't want to accept that. He's... he's not the Touya I knew. The Touya who was always so kind to me.

No... I'm wrong. I remember it now.

Touya, he was only kind to me and Natsuo when we were kids. Though towards the end he only ever spoke with me and spent time with me claiming only I could listen to him. But despite that he always had an angry expression when he spoke of Enji who paid more attention to Shoto. It was that look of his that I had blocked out... until now.

That look of hatred, resentment, and darkness that I see in Dabi now, is what he shown back then. Only this time he's not a little boy, his thoughts have evolved. His hatred has grown.

That side of him it's a side I never liked. It always terrified me. And seeing how he's become a villain now, it's breaking me.

The Touya I loved and cared for was like Dabi was when we'd share tender and intimate moments with each other. I did notice that at times, there would be that faraway look in his eyes; a darkness that made me wonder why it existed, but I always tended to think it was because he must've lived a difficult life. But now I understand. 

There's no denying it anymore, even if it hurts my heart.

"Y/N." A voice interrupted my thoughts. "I'm glad you're awake. You're usually asleep with the sedatives the doctor gives you and I haven't been able to come as much as I'd like. Sorry."

"Shoto..." I softly said his name. I turned away from him. It hurt too much seeing him. "It's fine. I understand, you're getting adjusted to the fact that UA is having their students go into dorms. Aizawa came by yesterday to talk to me." I explained.

"So he told you then? About Bakugou and the others..."

I nodded still not looking at him. "Yeah, I'm glad Bakugou is safe. But I'm sad to hear about All Might's retirement. He was and will always be a great hero."

"Y/N... da- the old man told me something." Shoto spoke making me turn to look at him with a stunned expression.

"What did he say?" I asked apprehensively. 

"He was in a foul mood. Fuyumi had tried asking him what was going on. We assumed he was mad about how he had now earned the number one spot since All Might retired but... that wasn't it." He sighed softly, hesitating how to say it but eventually he continued, "He said he lied about something, but he had no right to talk about it. If anything, Natsuo, Fuyumi, and I should ask you. He was upset and told us to support you. After giving it some thought... I think I rather hear it from you than pressuring him to tell me."

I frowned. "So you don't know?"

He bit his lip, "I have a vague idea."

I sighed deeply, "Sit." I beckoned him to sit close to me, "There's really no easy way to say this. I'm still trying to comprehend... accept this truth. I'm not Enji's and Rei's biological daughter. I'm adopted."

"What?" his eyes widened.

Ignoring his reaction I continued, "I don't know much but I was supposedly saved by Endeavor when I was about two or three years old. Apparently from a fire... I have no idea who my real father is, my mother... abandoned me for unknown reasons. In the end I got adopted by Enji and Rei, but somehow the Hero Commission advised it. I don't know the details. Just that I'm not a Todoroki by blood... I'm not related to any of you."