Amahle's Diary 4

Part 8

#AMAHLE

I was kind of nervous about today. You know that pit in your stomach when you know you've done something wrong? Well that's how I felt, I know I did nothing wrong but I was just scared. I know there aren't many disadvantages about the loop but what if something goes wrong when Amber extracts it out? What if I can't get pregnant? Then what? I know I was being ridiculous but things happen ok! I woke up and went to shower while Damon slept. When Damon had drunk the previous day he is a heavy sleeper, even if he didn't get drunk but the mere fact he was tipsy makes him sleep through anything. After showering I wore sweatpants and a vest with a white superstar and went over to Ambers office. Amber worked at the hospital part time and she owned a surgery with a friend. I got to the Surgery at 8am on the dot and Amber was luckily there so I went right in.

Me: Morning you

Her: morning patient. Since you've never been here before I'm forced to make a file for you

Me: it's weird. You my sister in law and now you going to see what my vjayjay looks like

Her: sweetheart deal. I've seen enough of those I can barely tell the difference anymore

Me: that almost sounds terrible

Her: I know right?! How come you here alone?

Me: my husband is sleeping in for the day

Her: oh the braai. Sorry I missed it ey. the little one has the flu

Me: oh I'm so sorry. I hope he gets better

Her: he'll get better. So what brings you here?

Me: to remove a loop

Her: you have a loop? When did you have it inserted?

Me: 4 or 5 years ago

Her: so why do you want to remove it?

Me: my husband wants a child

Her: but do you want one?

Me: *I shrugged* I owe it to him Amber

Her: what a way to put it. Personally I don't think you owe him a child, relationships aren't loans. You can't give my brother a child because you feel you owe it to him

Me: but Amber he's done so much for me; the least I could do is give him an heir

Her: Damon did all the things his done for you willingly without any expectations Amahle. He did the things he did out of love not because he felt he owed it to you. You need to want to have a child in order to have one

Me: but..

Her: I'm not trying to convince you not to remove the loop but Amahle pregnancy is not easy if you not willing. Chances are you might even miscarry because your heart is not in it. As your Gynae and sister in law I suggest you think about this thoroughly and then come to a decision. At the end of the day it's your body and you are not some baby making machine. Don't let my brother bully you

Me: I don't want him going to get an heir elsewhere Amber

Her: Damon is with you because he wants to be. A baby doesn't help you keep a man sweetheart, if he wants to whore he'll whore around still.

Me: I hear you

We went to the bed and I took off my panty and pants then laid on the bed as she smeared cold jell on my stomach to check where the loop was situated and checked my eggs and she said everything was fine. She took my file to write in and I sat up.

Her: Your eggs are in their right place. If you tried for a baby, there's a high chance of you getting pregnant. I'll remove the loop but don't force the whole baby making process. Let it happen on its own or else you won't get pregnant. If you stress too much and put too much thought in having a baby, you'll just end up obsessing and not getting pregnant