Forever the one (A Larry Stylinson Fanfic) L.S PART 1

Chapter 12 Louis

To say that I had hardly any sleep last night would be an understatement. After waking up from me dream about Harry I was unable to switch off and go back to sleep. It's been years since I've had such a vivid dream about us both and what's worse is that he's only been back a few days.  I'm glad Luke is at work today because looking at myself in the reflection I'm sure he would tell somethings up. I look like shit. My eyes are still red and puffy, my skin is pale my hair is sticking in all directions from where I've tossed and turned so yeah basically i look like crap. I'm not planning on going out today anyway, I've kept the shop closed for an extra day following the funeral and i said id pop over to Liams later to go through some of the boxes with him.

I walk out the bedroom across the landing in my joggers and t shirt, I'm not getting dressed yet that can wait, opening Evans door as i go past telling him it's time to get up in which i get a grunted reply. 

I go downstairs and switch the kettle on. In my fruitless moments of tossing and turning I've decided that no, I can't let my son get hurt when Harry skips town again. I'm not even going to give him the option after all he be gone in a few days back to his fancy life, one that don't include me or Evan. 

"Morning daddy" I turn around and Evans walking in rubbing his eyes yawning. 

"A good morning to you to young man, did you have a nice sleep?" he nods i presume it's a yes as he makes his way over to the kitchen table. He grabs his iPad off the table switching it on. Kids nowadays are obsessed with technology. I try to limit how long he's on it but some days I did not got the energy to argue like this morning, so I let him be. 

"You get yourself sorted mate and il do you some cereal and juice ok" he gives me a thumbs up.

I sort my coffee out God, I need it this morning, pour Evan some Juice and his cereal and settle down facing him at the table. I'm just watching him crunching away, bright eyes glued to his iPad screen, probably watching something football related. My heart soars just looking at him. He is such a good boy, yes, he has his moments, but I can't not be prouder of how he's turned out. It was a shock when I first found out I was pregnant, but I can't now imagine him not in my life. When Harry left it was devastating yet as soon as I laid eyes on this bundle of Joy, I knew that I was going to be fine. Me and him against the world. Its whilst I'm sitting there in my little world when i hear the sound from Evans iPad and its Harry singing. I almost spill my coffee trying to reach for the screen as I hear the words crooning out

We never learn, we've been here before
Why are we always stuck and running from
The bullets? The bullets?
We never learn, we've been here before
Why are we always stuck and running from
Your bullets? The bullets?

I snatch it out of his hands, I will admit it was a bit of a strange reaction esp. when Evan is looking at me, confusion all over his face. I look down at the screen and there's Harry, hair shorter face perfect and is wearing what looks like a long blue coat I think it's the music video for the song. I know this song. The first time it came on it took me ages to even be able to stand to hear it without breaking down. Things improved since then and me and Evan have actually listened to some of them, and it don't make me rush to switch off the radio when it comes on so I'm a bit unsure about my reaction today. I feel like I've gone back 5 years and back to square one. It hurts I, feel strange and I don't like it. I'm trying not to think what it could mean.

I place the iPad face down on the table so I can't see his bloody gorgeous face and look over at Evan who sitting there with a face on "sorry baby, daddy just got a headache this morning that's all and it was too loud" I try pacifying him with.