Harry had it all a family a great group of friends and the love of his life by his side. A chance of fulfilling his dreams means he has to leave all that behind as he makes a choice that will change his life forever. 7 years pass and Harry is a famo...
sorry its late my internet has played up all day. every time I pressed save it lost connection and then I lost the work. Due to this I'm really sorry if this chapter is disappointing, after 5 hours I was getting annoyed. Also, sorry if there are any mistakes. I will sort them tomorrow once my internet decides to stop being a dick.
Anyhow thank you all for reading I love reading your comments.
Why is it when u want to sleep to pass the time away no matter what you do it just doesn't happen. I've tossed and turned, fluffed this pillow about a 1000 times in this airplane seat and it's just not happening, I'm even getting pissed off with myself. I don't know if its anxiety or excitement or a bit of both. I know that right about now Louis and Evan will be watching The Late Late Show and I may have said a few things that maybe I shouldn't have, but I needed it out there. I just hope that Louis is not too angry at me, and he can see that it was all done out of desperation and love and also a little bit to show Olivia that I'm not playing her games. She may feel like she had won the battle last week, which she did between me and Louis, but she has definitely not won the war.
The last week in LA has been a mixture of ups and downs with me initially spending the first couple of days crying alone in my room with just Jack Daniels for company and sleeping off the mammoth hangovers that followed. I admit it's not my proudest moment and I know during that time I left countless voicemails to Louis to call me, for him to just listen and understand what I was saying, although he never did return my calls which left me in a state of utter despair. I still spoke to Evan, and he never mentioned anything unusual, was still his usual cheerful self so I took it from that, that he was not aware of any issues, so I chose to take that as a positive.
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It wasn't until Mitch and Sarah dragged me out of my house to get to the studio that I remembered I had come here to work and also the realisation that the sooner we do this the sooner I can get home.
So that is what I did, we worked many long, tiresome hours, I wanted it all done so I could go home and try and get the life I'd left behind last week back on track. I am pleased to say the album is now finished and I'm happy with it. There were a few tracks that have not made the final cut, but these are more personal to me, and I'd like to keep them that way.
It was actually Gemma's idea to say the stuff I did and be questioned about it on The Late Late Show. I rang her whilst I was in LA and she was here too. To say we had an emotional meeting would be about right. Gemma came to my house; I was in no mood or state really to be out and risk getting papped looking so shit, especially after the pictures released of me at the airport. Gemma only had to take one look at me when she arrived, before she rushed forward holding me in her arms and I broke down to her. I told her all about Dad and Mark and all about the last seven years, how I felt totally isolated, how I was just existing and not living and how it took the passing of Zayn to kick my arse into gear.
