Forever the one (A Larry Stylinson Fanfic) L.S PART 1

Chapter 21 Harry

Harry speaks some home truths to Olivia

It feels great being back in the studio. My band mates Sarah and Mitch are here throwing around melodies and lyrics and I have not stopped writing. I feel like a switch has been turned on and I'm full of inspiration due to a very cute boy and also someone with bright blue eyes.

Yesterday was amazing and I can't help but feel so happy, I finally feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, I'm as light as a feather. I only hope this feeling stays with me and hope that Olivia and Jeff don't want to play some tactic spin on the situation when I tell them. I won't have my son or Louis for that matter brought into any of the shit they may have planned. 

Thinking about them makes me antsy and I want to be done here so I can get back to Homes Chapel, but I know I need to finish this shit down here first. I look down at my journal and realise I probably have enough lyrics here for another album, and it's a nice thought. Hopefully if I can get this all done quickly, I can get a longer break before tour to spend with Evan and Louis. I know he has Luke, but it can't hurt to be friends can it, after all we are going to be co- parenting. of course, I'd love nothing more than to be more than friends, but I don't know if that will happen, one can only wish.

I haven't told the band yet about Evan or Louis, but I will. I know they won't judge me. In fact, Sarah has a kid herself a little girl aged 9 that she co-parents with her ex-Tom so I'm sure she will have some advice about how to make this work when out on the road and stuff, she always seems to be able to balance it all extremely well, maybe that's because she's so organised which I'm not so any tips would be greatly appreciated. I glance down at the words I've just written
 

If I could fly
I'd be coming right back home to you
I think I might
Give up everything, just ask me to

Pay attention, I hope that you listen
'Cause I let my guard down
Right now I'm completly defenceless

For your eyes only
I'll show you my heart
For when you're lonely
And forget who you are
I'm missing half of me
When we're apart
Now you know me
For your eyes only

I smile to myself as I realise every word, I've written is completely true. I wish I could go back now and spend time with them. I know I would without hesitation drop all of this just to be a dad and have a family. I don't know how Louis feels about me but I'm sure as I glance down at the lyrics, of my feelings towards him. Feelings that never truly went away and have only escalated since the first time I saw him last week. I just hope he knows that. Maybe il send him this song when its finished. I get out my phone sending Louis a quick text telling him I'm feeling inspired and hope he gets that him and Evan are the reason why.

"So, H, care to share what you're working on over there" mitch asks whilst tuning his guitar in. I hesitantly throw over the lyrics I've just written watching his face as he glances down the page, nervously twiddling the pen in my hands 

"Bloody hell, what happened this week, you go falling in love again" he jokes. I can feel my face go red as I look to the floor. How do I answer? I know I didn't fall in love again; I've been in love with louis forever. 

"I lift my head up "actually guys I have something to tell you" I see them both look in my direction waiting for me to speak, as I take a breath. Here goes nothing

"Well, you know I went back home as one of my best friend's passed away" they both nod "well it seems that there was more waiting up there for me than I realised, like a little boy who I'm now a proud daddy to"