Seventeen X Y/N (A little Jeongcheol)

Broken

You nearly collapsed, seeing Jeonghan and Mingyu standing in front of you, holding packets of food.

Youngmin came behind you. You didn't care and walked to the door, knocking softly before entering.

'Y/n'

You ignored whoever called you and walked straight to beside Seungcheol. You knelt down, your knees giving way. Holding onto his hand tightly and brought it to your cheek.

'Appa... Appa... Please wake up... Stop playing a prank... Appa...'

You didn't care that you were in a hospital room or that there was 13 other people watching you break down.

'Aegi...' Jeonghan called out, trying to pull you away from Seungcheol, for you to stand up.

You swung him away.

'LEAVE ME ALONE! SCREW YOU FOR NOT TELLING ME ABOUT HIM! YOU DON'T FUCKING CARE ABOUT ME! YOU LET HIM STAY HERE UNCONSCIOUS WHILE I CONTINUED WITH MY LIFE NOT KNOWING ABOUT HIM. GUESS WHAT! I HAD TO FIND OUT ABOUT THIS THROUGH BLOODY REPORTERS AND NOT EVEN PEOPLE I THOUGHT I WAS CLOSE TO AND COULD TRUST!'

*Slap*

'PARK Y/N! WATCH YOUR MOUTH!'

You held onto your cheek and glared at Jeonghan.

'WELL I GUESS I DON'T HAVE TO SINCE I don't know you anymore'

You ran out of the room before anyone could react.

'Y/N!' You knew it was Youngmin calling you but you just didn't want to talk to him.

Tears streamed down your face. You never meant to lash out at Jeonghan or any of them but seeing Seungcheol in that state made you lose yourself. Was it true that Seungcheol's condition was a result of his worry that you were going to court? You were the cause of his pain?

When Jeonghan slapped you, you anger got worse and the moment the last few words came out of your mouth, you felt guilty and regret. This wasn't how Seungcheol taught you to be. He always taught you to love others, to care for them. He always taught you to be the better person but... he was there, on that bed, because of you.

You had somehow ended up at the hospital open air villa that was meant for patients to get fresh air. It was empty so you didn't feel awkward.

You sat on the wooden swing and started rocking. At the moment, the chair felt too big. Seungcheol always accompanied you on the swing since it was meant for two people. He would hold your hand and use his much longer legs to push the swing by kicking the ground. Now, the swing barely moved since you couldn't reach the ground.

'Baobao...' You heard someone whisper from behind.

Clearly it was either Jun or Minghao.

You didn't react and continued trying to push the swing. You wanted to hold Seungcheol's hand like you always did when you two were on the swing together.

The one who came, quietly came to behind the swing and gently pushed it, letting you go higher. You two stayed that way for a while. He pushed the swing while you swung higher, each time you flew up, the gentle breeze blew your hair backwards.

'You can stop pushing' You said gently.

Minghao gently slowed down the swing. Hair covered your face due to the wind and you remembered how Seungcheol used to kneel down just so he could remove the loose strands of hair from your face, while lovingly caress your cheek, the cheek that was probably red now from Jeonghan's slap.

Minghao tried to walk to you but you walked away.

'Baobao~'

He ran quickly to catch up with you and you let yourself being back hugged.

'Please... let go'

'Baobao...'

'Ge... please... just let... go'

'Baobei...'

'I SAID LET GO!' You shouted at him with all your might.

You were low on energy from all the crying and you didn't have dinner too.

Minghao was persistent. He didn't let go, instead he held on tighter while you tried to struggle out of his grip. You eventually gave up struggling and just collapsed into his arms, letting his arms wrap around you.

'Baobao~ Please don't be like this... Talk to me... Please'

Tears continued flowing down your cheeks. What did you have to say to him? That you fucked up their life?

'I'm sorry. Appa's in there because of me. Jeonghan shii is mad because of me. If I didn't appear in your life, this wouldn't have happened. Ge... Should I just disappear?'

'What are you talking about?!' Minghao panicked, shaking your shoulders.

'I will cut off all connections with all of you. Back to when we didn't know each other. You guys can keep the rooms in my company, come over whenever you want but we will act as if we don't know each other at all. After the court case, let's not know each other anymore'

'Baobei... Please don't say that'

'I'm sorry it's for the best. Just remember, I love all of you very very much' You kissed his cheek one last time and walked away while he knelt onto the ground, crying for you to not leave.

Looking at him one last time, you left. You headed to outside Seungcheol's ward and peered in. They all looked distraught while Jeonghan was crying, holding onto Seungcheol's hand. The sight broke you but you knew there was only one way for you to fix this. You closed the door without a final goodbye and left.

You texted Youngmin to meet you at the carpark after he ensures Minghao returns safely to the ward.

(Carpark)

'Y/n?'

You stayed silent and got into the car. You didn't sit in the passenger's seat like you always did. You sat at the back. The seats you only used when they were with you since others would call shot gun.

You leaned on your hand against the window. Were you crying? You didn't know. You didn't care. This was the end... you guys were going separate ways after the 2nd court trial next week.

(Time skip)

You haven't seen them since that day. They did come to your company to sleep but you always avoided them. Having spent so long with them, you knew their schedules and daily routines well. You knew they would try to access your room so you removed their data from being able to enter the level your room was on.

If they waited outside for you, you would just stay behind the wall till they left. It hurts but it was for the better.

You buried yourself deeper into work, trying to collect evidence to use against Kim Jinyoung. Jeonghan was still your key witness but you never communicated with him ever since.

The only form of communication they had with you was through Youngmin.