We got bad blood. 🎡

Chapter 43 : Smooth.

Apo takes Build aside, on the other side of the yacht because he wants to talk alone with him. They sit next to each other, it feels awkward as it has never been like this between them, they look at the sea in front of them. Apo takes a deep breath before he starts to talk, he still feels ashamed by what he has done to his best friend and he can't agree to lose him.

Apo : So.. I want to apologize to you.. I'm truly sorry.. If I knew that I would lose you, then I would have stopped them.. I just need to live and watch you from afar.. But I'm happy that Bible is by your side and can be there for you if you need.. After that terrible day, I'm always worried about you.. What if someone hurts you again ? How can I survive without you ? And yet.. I was not even there for you when you were torn between Jeff and Bible, I was a bad best friend.. I have no excuse.. I just hope one day, you will forgive me and allow me to be part of your life again.. I will wait as you long you need it Build..

Build : It's hard to talk and feel heard when you always feel like a burden. I don't wanna add to the concern I know you already got, when my mind and me we don't get along sometimes and it gets hard to breathe. I had no one to tell what my thoughts were at those times, I was frozen in time while everybody was moving forward. How frustrated I was. I waited for someone to notice my fake smile, how I convinced people to believe I was fine. I was a great actor since everybody never noticed it was just a show. But I wouldn't change my life and all of the crashing and burning and breaking, I know now because I needed it, to be who I am today. I felt lonely for a long time, now I have a boyfriend and we are happy together, building strong healthy foundations. Anyways, I forgive you, you need to understand that I can't be the same around you because I'm an overthinker and I will always ask myself if I do something, you will make another choice for myself without consulting me first..

Apo : I'm sorry to hear that.. I don't deserve the title of best friend, I should have been there for you when you were going through this bad time. I will do my best to regain your trust and you will be able to count on me, to be yourself and not hide behind your cute smile. I can do better for you. And it's never going to happen for me to make the same mistake. So... Do you want to talk about Bible ?

Build : We need time to heal, but it's alright. I knew you would be curious about him and me.. Well, I'm happy, both of us changed so this time it will work. We discover more things about each other and it's different, new. We share deep secrets, some thoughts we never told anyone about it. I never thought I could love him more, but I was wrong. All those new things I learn about him makes me fall harder. He truly cares about me, he doesn't want to make me uncomfortable, so we are going slowly, one step after one and it works. And sex is amazing, I never imagined we had same taste of it.

Apo : How can I not be curious about you ? I can sense the change and Mile told me how he was after your breakup. He did his own show with his fake girlfriend when you were around, but most of the time he was alone. He worked hard to move on because he knew the pain he made you go through. The moral of the story is it made you grow, made you more mature and now, you are both ready for this relationship. I'm happy for you. The fate gives you another chance because it was meant to be. And I never thought he would like the same things in bed as you do. I know how you never really satisfied with your one night stand so it's nice, you found your match.