Love By A Neat Freak Psychopath ✔

Chapter 20

Memories

"You can open your eyes now, Miss Spencer."- sabi ng isang boses at marahan akong tinapik sa balikat.

Nasilayan ko ulit ang puting kwarto at ang mukha ng doctor ko.

Inaayos na nya yung nilagay nya sa sentido ko kanina at tinignan ang resulta niyon.

"Your frequency result was almost the same as before. So I guess you had a dream again."

It's not a dream. It's a part of my memories.

Umayos ako ng upo at umalis sa pagkakasandal. Nag inat din ako ng bahagya at saka sya tinignan.

"What have you seen in your dreams?"

I look down for a moment and sigh. "I saw her. From the beginning until the moment I lost a glimpse of her.."

"Tell me what you're feeling right now."

She took her pen out and opened the folder consisting of blank white paper.

"The very first moment you told me about your feelings in your dreams, you told me you were eager to see her. Tell me, are you still wishing to meet this woman?"

"Yes."

"But it's been five years."

"I know."

Napabuntong hininga ako at kumuyom ang mga kamay.

"Whenever we're having a session, you're always talking about her. Are you still taking your medication?"

"No."

She stopped writing and looked back at me. "You have to."

I wipe my face and heave a deep sigh.

"I'm fine. I don't need any medication because my freaking brain is fine! There's nothing wrong with me, and you know that!"

"Alright, calm down."

Sinarado nya ang folder na hawak nya at nilapag. Kinalma ko naman ang sarili ko dahil nagsisimula na naman ako mainis.

"You were diagnosed with psychosis when you were just a teenager. And it got worse five years ago."

"You're going to rub it in my face again that it was just all in my head? that she's not real and I'm just crazy?"

"I never called you crazy, Miss Spencer."

"It's because I'm not! My brain is perfectly fine, and I can guarantee you that everything in my dreams happened to me in real life!"

"I know and I believe you. But you must understand that not everyone will understand you like I do."

She's right. No one wants to believe in me. No matter how many times I tried to explain to them why I got lost for a week five years ago, I always ended up getting the same feedback. They say I'm just imagining things. 

Matapos ang session ko sa aking doctor ay natagpuan ko ang sarili ko sa loob ng kotse at nag dadrive pauwi.

Limang taon na ang lumipas, napakarami ng nangyari at nagbago sa buhay ko.

Naka graduate ako, namatay si lola, kinasal ang pinsan ko, at naging sikat na modelo ang ate ko na ngayon ay malapit na din ma ikasal sa taong mahal nya pero ako ay nabubuhay pa din sa nakaraan.

Umaasa pa din ako na sana totoo ang lahat ng iyon at hindi lamang panaginip.

Kung alam ko lang na iyon ang huling araw at gabi na mahahawakan at makikita ko sya , sana hindi nalang ako natulog at sana sinabi ko na sa kanya na nakuha na nya ang puso ko at handa akong mahalin sya sa paraan na gusto nya.