Her Fire

Ever?

"The day we met in the bookstore, something in me changed. You changed me. I was different the second I looked into your eyes. There's just something about you. It's easy, effortless, so amazingly wonderful, so exotic yet oh so familiar. You don't muddle things up, you clear them. You make me want to be better, do better. You make me feel like... like..." he pauses, searching for the words.

"Like home." I state.

'Déjà vu.' My eyes water.

'Please take me, take me and remember.' I wish to myself. Axl looks up at me and begins to say something, but I hold up my hand to stop him.

"Wait. Before you say anything else, I have to tell you something. You might think I'm crazy and not believe me, but please hear me out before you make that judgement, okay?" I look to him for his response to my request. He nods. I take a deep breath and release it.

"Okay, as I said, this may sound crazy, but here we go. You and I are soulmates. We have been since our beginning. The men of our people don't remember this for some reason no one can seem to recall anymore. The women, however, do. We have to move around, a lot, to find our soulmates. I'm really not supposed to be telling you this because we can't force you to be with us when we do find you. You're still your own person. We have shared twenty-seven lifetimes together, and I wasn't with you in the last one and I can't take it anymore. Damnit Tobias, I miss you so much." I nearly shout, emotions running high.

'DÉJÀ VU' and I start crying. I realize all too late that I didn't use his current name. I risk looking at him. He's just sitting there, mouth agape, eyes wide, not processing what I said. I can't take the rejection, so I begin to walk away to leave.

"Axl, I'm so sorry." I say taking another step, tears staining my cheeks. Another step, and another. A hand grabs my wrist to stop me, and I don't move so I can feel his touch for however long I can.

'DÉJÀ VU'

"I'm so sorry." I repeat.

"What did you call me?" His face stern, yet expressionless.

"Tobias. That was your name in our first life together. The name you had when we became soulmates. We have both had many names, but you will always be mine, as I will always be yours." I answered him.

"You were right." he spits.

"What?" I ask, not seeing this side of him before.

"I said, you were right." he repeats shortly.

"About what?" I return, afraid of what the answer might be. Axl looks at me with anger and hurt in his eyes,

"You are crazy." and he turns away from me and walks off. I'm absolutely stunned, shocked and heartbroken. Sobs instantly begin and I chase after him. My eyes searching the crowd for his frame.

"Axl!" I yell, continuing to run up the street.

"Axl, wait!" I plead. I somehow manage to catch up and stop him.

"What?" he snaps at me. I'm taken aback. This side of him scares me. I pause for a moment.

"Well?" his patience wearing thin. I can't seem to form any words, being so frozen from his thundering intimidation. He huffs,

"I don't have time for this. Take your crazy self the fuck away from me. I don't ever want to see you again." he shouts angrily and walks away, again. I just collapse. My heart is irreversibly shattered. The tears just pour from my eyes of their own accord. I've lost my soulmate.

'Never wants to see me again? Ever?' I can't think anymore, so I just scream. I scream my heart out and cry. That's all I can do. Cry and scream.