Running Wild (a one direction fan fiction)

part 13

Liams P.O.V

I felt horrible leaving Lillie in that awkward situation and she'll probably never want to speak to me again, i am such an idiot. I've never know what it quite is but when a girl is so lovely its not true i start to not believe in myself.

Then when she kissed me, although it was forced, i felt the sparks fly off between the two of us and you couldn't deny them either, its just causing all the tension could of pushed Lillie even further away from me and i wasnt that close to start with. I was just re-runing that moment through

my head over and over again like it was a broken record, i just felt so sorry for Lillie and myself.

*knock knock*

One of the lads were probably trying to see how i was and i wasn't exactly in the mood to speak to anyone right now.

"just leave us for a minute mate" i said lying down

on the bed facing away from the door,

"well you have no choice" and i jumped up at the sound of Lillie's voice as she quietly slid through the door and closed it behind her. She just stood standing looking at her feet not sure who was to speak first.

"Look Liam...." she started and i could her the break in her voice telling me she was upset and maybe close to tears.

"SIt down i have some explaining" i said patting the bed in the space next to me as I made room.

"Firstly i hope you understand that meant nothing and i hope there's no awkward tension between us?" i said making sure we were on a common ground.

"of course liam that wasn't yours nor my fault and i wouldn't have changed my opinion on you because of something stupid louis done" she said also sounding like she understood me.

"good" i said not sure where the rest of this was going to lead.

"am not sure how to explain myself really lillie but the only way i can put it is that over the few weeks i have seen such a lovely side to you. You have a great sense of humor, lovely personality and to me you have a beautiful aura inside and outside" i couldn't finish what i was saying as a sudden flow of ebrassament, sickness and worried came over. Was i being to forward? Am i pushing her away? Have i spoiled it?

Lillies P.O.V

I couldn't get my head around how much liam was telling me about his feelings and i thought these were since being on holiday but i think for liam that may have been a bit longer. He had stopped talking and had put his face in his hands and at this moment was probably telling himself he'd wrecked our relationship. He hadn't.

"look at me liam" i said and pulled at his chin, he turned his chin up and faced me.

"look that was the sweetest thing anyone has ever told me and i know for you that must of been incredibly hard for you to say and i take full advantage of your kind words and they mean alot to me" i said holding his hand to try calm him down and get him feeling normal again.

" thanks lillie and i know you don't feel the same so can we just be mutual friends" he said which hurt because now liam had showed me such a sensitive side he was so attractive in an unusual way.

"liam stop it" i said trying to get him to understand "dont immediately assume i don't like you, i know your feelings are strong but maybe we can get to know each other a bit more and see where things go" his faced brightened up straight away.

"am not saying this is us changing our status from good friends i would just like to become great friends, maybe find out who and what the real liam james payne is like" i said letting go of his hand and standing up going to head out the door when liam pulled on my shoulder.

" wait lillie.....i just want to say.....thanks you know that was hard for me and your probably the only person on this trailer that would understand" he said the corners of my lips turning up.

"oh come here you softie" i said and embraced liam into a warm hug as i put my arms round his neck and he slid his arm round my waist, we had a warm feeling between us and who knows maybe their is another level to our relationship?

I walked back out to the others with a smiley liam behind to find that thankfully the tension had risen from this room as well, but for some strange reason no-one recognised we had returned as they were all scurrying around as if loking for something.They were all either stood up moving things round or on the floor searching intensely.

"well i'd like to think i know what you are all doing but am i completely confused" i said breaking everys concentration.

"ahh look the happy couple have shaken hands" said harry trying to be funny

"shut it harry, dont push your luck"i said not in the mood for defending myself after liam's sudden emotion up chuck.

"may i ask what your all doing?" i said maybe being of asisstance.

"well miss dumb-ass" said liv who always adressed people in the kindest of manners "we are looking for your magical phone" she said and then i realised i could faintly hear my ringtone in the background, and am sure everyone else could tell i had realised too.

"yes thats right we've had THE one direction ring tone on loop for 5 minutes now and we still havent managed to find it" said niall thouroughly checking the couch. The ringtone was just up to the section were niall screams for his freedom to get out the phone,

"hear!! i am desperate to be found and saved" said niall shaking his hands in the air. Now i am always losing my phone its become quite a habit and i knew they were looking in the wrong places i never loose my phone in normal places.

"stop what your all doing i will no where it is" i said walking over to the mini fridge and there sat next to the left over cake was my phone loudly buzzing and ringing away.

"why the bloody hell is it in the fridge?" asked louis who looked relieved that we had found it yet slightly surprised.

"my phone just seems to find its way there" i said not sure how to really explain it.

"oh yeah like the time we found it in the washing basket" said helen giggling away to hersef.

"What?" said niall

"oh am not explaing my phone just has a mind of its own" i said finally able to answer not even checking the ID.

"Hello" i said finding it hard to hear over the noise so i stepped outside of the trailer to be able to hear the other person.

"hello.....hello... lillie is that you?" asked a womans voice and i wasn't quite sure who it was becase the only woman who rings me is my mum.

"am sorry, yeah this is lillie how can i help you" i said being polite in my phone voice.

"thank goodness this is sandy my dear" sandy was my neighbour, a little old woman in her 70's who was so adorable.

"oh hello sandy sorry it took so long to answer whats up?" i asked wondering why i was getting a phone of my neighbour all the way from home.

"i am so sorry to tell you lillie but you mum has fallen ill again and has been rushed to hospital, now dont worry she is in great care and all her doctors are looking after her. If your wodering why i am calling is because all your family are at the hospital giving support. Now young lady you are strong and brave am so sorry to have to of spoilt you holiday but i know your stubborn self would of hated to be last to know" sandy went quite on the other end of the phone but so had i and at this moment of time i couldn't quite take in what i had been told.

"bye sandy" i said having to quickly end the phone call as i burst out in tears as they streamed down my face and flooded my eyes. My whole world felt like it was crsuhing in around me and i was no help becuase i was 1000's of miles away from home. I was sat on the cold surface outside the trailer just sitting looking at the beach and the tide coming in and out, i had managed to sit outside for an hour and no-one had been out to see me. Which i was thankful of becuase i wouldn't of been able to explain the situation.

I felt so hopeless and useless just sat here crying and feeling sorry for myself while my mum was having to battle a terrible disease without me to hold her hand or comfort her along the way. i realised that i needed to go home and this trip had to end for me, although disney is a dream come true my mother is my life and without her i am nothing. Facing my friends was the hard part...