Running Wild (a one direction fan fiction)

part 24

Lillie's P.O.V

I had taken liam on the path that me and the girls used to do, and I emphasis used to because ever since we met the boys they havent wanted to do it as much they are more tired after having late nights with them and have no energy in the morning. Although I have loved every single second with the boys especially zayn I feel like am changing and am not the person I used to be and I dont want to be like that.

We had turned the corner of my road and I stopped liam before we reached my house,

“thanks liam that was exactly what I need and its opened my eyes thank you” I said reaching up and giving him a big hug.

“my pleasure you sure can run cant you lillie” he said going red in the cheeks.

“well its the only thing am good at” I said feeling sorry for myself again.

“now stop” said liam sarcastically “we've just solved this and were moving forwards lets just look at the positives your amazing at running” he said making me feel good once again this boy should be a life coach one day.

“now am feeling like a hot beverage what do you say?” I asked as we walked back down to my house,

“erm I think I best be off, thanks for the offer but I've left things at Harry's and need to go get them” he said giving me one last hug “ill speak to you tomorrow, or should I say today as its half 1 now”and he walked up to the top of the road to go back.

As I made my way down to my house I noticed that a big black car parked outside my house and as I got closer I noticed whose car it was, and there sat on my front step was zayn.

“what are you....”i started but he cut in,

“look lillie ive acted as a fool I dont know why I said any of those things about you, you do love people you are caring your everything I look for in someone and I have no explanation for why I said it just that I am begging you for forgiveness” he said he was stood right over me and his hot breath was filling my face.

“i.......erm” I said not knowing how to respond to that, I was happy for what he had said but didnt know what to say back.

“look can we talk inside?” he asked and I didnt feel to comfortable having him insisde my house when I wasnt totally sure of my feelings and I didnt want to do something stupid.

“id prefer to talk here” I said very low and took a seat on the cold step.

Tonight wasn't wet and hadnt rained but it was bitterly cold, and zayn had taken a seat next to me and placed his arm round the bottom of my back.

“look zayn I am sorry too I was stubborn before I know I run away when am scared its just am getting used to being round all the boys plus having to be in a relationship with someone id never dreamt of even talking to I just get overwhelmed sometimes and tense up inside” I said and he placed his arm around my shoulder.

We sat there in the freezing cold for a good 10 minutes without saying a word to each other and we seemed to just be thinking what we should do.

“look if you don't want to be together anymore I understand but I am letting you know I would be devastated if we did” he said shifting himself round am removing his arm from round me.

“it's not that I don't want to be with you I do its just what happens if we get into an argument like this again will we come out of that one”as much as I wanted to say yes to zayn for me having a boyfriend wasn't always that important if I had one great but if I caused me stress I didn't see the point.

“erm..i don't know what to say I don't know if I like this” said zayn standing up in front of me.

“am sorry am just a mess lately an am not being a very good girlfriend or friend, I just left tonight without even letting my friends know”i was close to breaking point and my voice was choking up but this was the right decision”