Feeling For You (DNF)

Chapter 21: Together

Author's note:

Hi everyone! This chapter is possibly the most fluff-filled in the entire fic, which is good because the next chapter is the start of the angst... but don't worry, there will be an eventual happy ending. 

Thank you all for reading! All votes and comments are amazing! <3

Word count: 3,193 

For this chapter, I recommend listening to Somewhere Only We Know by Keane, I Need Your Love by Keane, and/or Love Someone by Lukas Graham.

⚠️TRIGGER WARNINGS: Warnings are listed at the bottom of the chapter, although there aren't many! :)

"George," I breath, breaking our kiss and pulling him into a hug. "Oh my god, I still can't believe this is real."

George grins at me, a wide smile causing his brown eyes to wrinkle. "Believe it, Dream."

I laugh lightly, and bury my face in his chocolate hair, the lingering dampness from the lake tinting the color an even darker brown than usual. He smells like Florida, like fading summertime, like October sunsets after the world has shifted.

This, I think, is perfect. This is the best I've ever been. Loving George makes me better. I'm happy with him, and want this forever.

... So why haven't I told him?

There's no good answer. No excuses, no explanations. There's only the truth, plain and simple; I've been lying to George for years, and I'm keeping a secret that could tear us apart. 

George deserves better. My empathy, my ability to feel his emotions, is something he deserves to know the truth about. I need to tell him about my empathy, before-

Before what? Before he falls in love with you? Before you kiss? Before you start dating and promise to stop keeping secrets? 

I'm too late for that.

 I should have told George about my empathy when we first met, when I tried to get his help coding something after BadBoyHalo introduced us. 

"His name is George, he might be able to help you with coding. Try reaching out to him! He's the smartest muffin I know!" 

I should have told him when he agreed to start streaming and making videos with me, agreeing to tie his career and his future in with mine, forever. 

"Wait, really? You'll do it?! You'll make a channel with me? Holy shit, George! I- I don't- ha, I don't even know what to say!"

I should have told him when I bought him a quarts elephant, a sign of affections I tried to convince myself were nothing more than platonic, not knowing that he would carry the gift with him when he moved into a new apartment, and even when he moved to America.

"One and a half inches..? Dream."

 I should have told him when he applied for a VISA, a promise to move across the world for someone he'd never met in person, or even seen.

"So, they said it would take longer for a permanent green card, but all the paperwork is done. Now we just... wait. But I'm sure it'll work, and I'll get to move in with you. Maybe we can make it in time for a Dream Team Christmas!"

 I should have told him when we won Minecraft Championship, when we were both screaming like maniacs and all I could think about was how happy I was, and how proud I was of George.

"George! George, we won! You're- you're fucking amazing, George!"

I should have told him when I took the "Am I In love With My Best Friend" test, the day I realized that my general obsession with George was a borderline crush... or something more.