[DISCONTINUED] Shadow Lover

Just a Dream

All lights are off. I am sleeping.

I wake up in the Pentagon. Another vision? I thought this would be over. I can't move at my own will. It's a dream. Great.

I go inside the hallway and go up the stairs. Am I looking for something? Am I looking for someone? I get to my dorm and instead of going in, I take a turn to the right and knock on Vera's dorm. Why is she in my dreams? Vera opens and I go inside. In this dream she looks... lost. It's like she is trying to get to something but she can't. She is wearing a white tank top and pajama pants. I never wore a tank top. I find them to be a disgrace to the fashion world. I never knew someone could look so... good wearing one. But that is just dream Wednesday thinking. Nothing is ever going to make me change my opinion on tank tops. But she makes them look so good.

"I need your help." she says. Her voice was sort of dreamy and light.

"With what?" I ask. I'm proud to say that even in my dreams I can keep my "goth girl cool". That is how Enid described it.

Vera placed her hand on my shoulder. I should pull away but I can't. I'm not in control here. She leans towards me and our faces get dangerously close. How do I stop this? It's like my face is being pulled toward hers. I can suddenly feel the muscles in my hands. I was lucid dreaming.

"I want to stop this." I said. Vera stopped for a second and she looked at me kindly. Then her cold gaze came back and it was stronger than ever.

"But do you really want to?" 

Our lips touched and my mind went blank.

Huh. Do I want to. Do I want to stop. Do I?

I was walking with Enid toward our classes. Do I want to stop? She was telling me about how she was having a few girls over this night. Do I want to? She was telling me that they would sleep on her side and would not bother me. Do I?

Why was I thinking those things? But I wasn't thinking them, I was dreaming them. You can't control your subconscious. But I was lucid dreaming. I could stop it all but I didn't. What was I thinking?

I see a piece of paper being slid in front of me on my desk. Enid gave it to me. I unfolded the paper and read what it wrote.

Are you ok?

Yes.

I gave the paper back to Enid, shutting her down. She continued writing on it and passed it back to me. I scoffed at her annoying yet kind approaches and opened the note once again.

Are you sure? You seem so out of it. I'm here if you need to talk to somebody

Maybe it is time to open up. I trust Enid more than I trusted that idiotic woman that was my so-called "therapist" and even though I trust Thing, I am too embarrassed to tell him about this.

I had this dream about a certain girl. I looked at Enid to see her face light up at the sight of me writing on the paper. I went to her dorm, I continued, and... she kissed me. And I let her. And I have been thinking about her ever since. I pass the note back to Enid. She read the letter and started giggling to herself. After class, she came up to me.

"Oh my god, I cannot believe this! Wednesday Addams has a crush!!!" Enid yelled.

"Enid, if you don't keep your voice down I will cut your vocal cords and feed them to the wolves. And no, I do not have a crush. I am not the romantic type, I don't feel attraction, especially not the physical kind and I don't even like being around this girl."

"Wednesday, denial is a river in Egypt. Wake the hell up. You've talked to this girl before?"

"A few times. And it was torture."

"I thought you enjoyed torture." Enid smiled teasingly and then she left for her next class.

Night time came by and Enid was jumping up and down in excitement that her friends were coming over. She prepared snacks, nail polishes and stickers and the thing she was most excited about was the stack of the ugliest dresses I have ever seen laying on her bed. She said they would have a runway. This is child's play. 

I had my own ideas for the night: finishing chapter 13 in my novel, disecting the skunk I have found in the woods a few days ago and mostly do everything to get Vera out of my head.

There was a knock on the door followed by the sound of girls chattering. Enid ran up to the door and opened it, letting all the girls come in. They sounded like less than I thought they would be. In came Yoko. She threw a big bag on Enid's bed and hugged her while waving at me. I didn't bother to wave back. Divina walked in and also hugged Enid. I anticipate her coming because of her strong bond with Yoko. But they were expecting another girl since Enid was keeping the door open. A girl walked in. Long hair, curtain bangs, pajama pants and a white tank top. 

It was Vera