the moon (a rini au)

fire away

TW - extreme flashbacks, ptsd, mentions of r***, breakdowns, touch sensitivity, verbal and physical abuse, homophobia 

please do not read if any of this is triggering to you, your mental health matters more

-General POV-

Ricky shakily runs over to the guest room, closing the door behind him. He sits against the connecting bathroom door, tears rolling down his face. "Nini please open the door.. please ace... open the door.. please.." he pleads hearing the loud whimpers and crashes from the other side. "Nini please.. respond please or I'm coming in.. ace..ACE!" He stands up, hesitantly opening the door Nini forgot to lock. 

Her eyes are blood shot, she's hyperventilating and choking, her whole body is shaking violently, there's a broken vase on the floor and small cuts from glass on her. Remembering the whole thing seems to have triggered a massive PTSD attack, she hasn't thought of it in very long, she avoids letting her mind go back there. 

Ricky moves towards her, she moves further away but there isn't much space for her to back away. "N-Neens I'm sorry you're going to hate this I'm really sorry but I have to." He's sobbing too.

"NO NO TOUCHING NO" she shrieks out. He wraps his arms around her tightly as she kicks aggressively. "I-Im. applying. deep. pressure." He says in between sobs. "It's going to calm- ca-calm your sympathetic nervo-nervous system down your pulse rate. has. to. g-go. down, you're going to resist more at first but it will it will calm-" "STOP THE TOUCHING" her muffled screams interrupting him. He keeps holding on tightly as she scratches and kicks screaming into his shoulder, he opens the glass sliding door to the shower booth pushing them both in, her breathing is slightly better. He turns the water on, sitting down holding her tight, she's still resistant. Her knees are up to chest, she's shaking and crying uncontrollably. His arms completely envelop her, one hand around her, one in her now drenched hair running his hand through it, removing the ribbon and trying his hardest to soothe her. "MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP" muffled shouting repeats into his chest, he's rocking them back and forth. 

-Nini's POV- (flashbacks) 

She tries to resist, both hands held down firmly, they're laughing at her while she screams and cries.

"Where are your d*ke mothers now huh you little pervert!" one of them says. 

She scratches and kicks, trying everything. A tight slap stains her face "BEHAVE YOU B**CH" 

-General POV-

Everything comes flashing back to her from that night, from the months after that; she can barely comprehend what's happening around her. He's rocking her back and forth, crying himself "Shh.. shh.... I've got u.. I'm here.. you're safe.. I'm here.. shh.. shh...." he repeats, the water still running. She stopped kicking a few minutes ago, still muffled screaming incoherently into his chest. He doesn't stop the rocking or the comforting whispers. 

Los hesitantly walks into the guest room and towards the bathroom, the door is cracked open. He looks at Ricky, shock overtaking him, tears pooling his eyes, EJ and Madi are behind him. Ricky meets their gaze momentarily through the glass. Seb is upstairs putting Jamie back to sleep, the screaming had woken him up, everyone else is now awake in the living room. Carlos, EJ and Madi leave the room giving them space. 

An hour later, Ricky's still rocking her back and forth with the shower running, she's no longer awake, still shaking. He reaches one hand up and turns off the water. Her face is buried in his chest, her arms and legs weakly wrapped around his torso, he maintains a steady grip. Seb comes in slowly, EJ following. They clear up the glass before anyone else gets hurt and hand Ricky towels that he wraps around her. EJ carefully steps in for a moment, taking another towel and putting it around Ricky.  

A few minutes later, Ricky slowly carries her out of the bathroom. It's 5:24 am now. He carries her into the living room, his eyes are tired and red. Everyone stands up trying to see how they can help, confused about what happened. Madi grabs their stuff, insisting on driving the pair to Nini's apartment. EJ says he'll take care of Cosmo. The car ride home was quiet, Nini was asleep, Ricky was crying silently for a while. Madi walks them up. 

"Hey uhh Mads, can you um help change her, I think she'd be slightly more comfortable with the idea that you changed her clothes than me.." 

"yeah uhh yeah ofcourse."

Ricky lays her down on the bed, she's completely out of it, and walks into the bathroom for a few minutes washing his face repeatedly and changing out of his drenched clothes.  

"You can come out now" Madi says against the door, when he walks out she has a mellow expression on her face. "The scars..." She mumbles. "Yeah.." 

"Hey I'm gonna head out now, her hairs still kinda wet, just.." Madi hugs him comfortingly. "We'll see you guys on Monday, oh and Gi called the diner to let them know she isn't coming in today." 

"Thank you.." Ricky says genuinely. After Madilyn leaves, he gets a towel and hairbrush from Nini's bathroom gently drying her hair and combing it through. He closes all the blinds and turns on the air con, slowly pulling her into his arms and pulling the blanket over them. He nuzzles in gently making no sudden movements, his nose is buried in her hair. "I've got you ace.." 

istg writing this had me sobbing 

and that's 3/3 enjoy everyone