Falling For You // M.H. //

// 4 //

Matty

Her lips were ice against mine as her hands wound in my hair. Her body squirmed beneath me as i nipped at her breasts.

"Here." She squeaked to me, i looked up my vision completely hazed. Her pale hand held out a joint, "It's laced." She whispered as i fetched my lighter from my jeans. I used my forearms to hold me over her as i lit the joint,

"Thanks." I said as i inhaled an awaited drag. She nodded pressing her lips to my neck. I could feel her lips sucking and biting but the sensations subsided as the coke hit me. For a moment i was stuck in a dream, a dream that swirled around my body. My finger tips were on fire with any sensation known to man. And it all hit me like a truck, over and over. I could no longer feel my heartbeat, all i felt was this girl around me. I don't even remember her name...but that was the least of my concerns.

"What are you doing?" Her voice called to me. But it was lost in my trip, it was insanely distant. But i knew she was right next to me curled into my chest.

"Mmm..what was that love?" I responded willing my mouth to speak.

"Oh nothing, i like that." She said. I didn't know what i was doing. I don't know what i was doing honestly, it was as if there was a veil over my hazed eyes.

"Mmm...good darl." The words slipped out of my mouth. So easily like i havent stopped saying them over and over in her ear. My mind hit a block and my heart began to stammer harshly in my chest. "Stop. Stop. Stop!" I said finally realizing what was going on.

"What the fu.ck is your problem?" She yelled smacking my face. I continued to push her off the bed hearing a loud thump hit the floor.

"Get out!" I yelled, my finger pointing to the door. She needed to leave, now.

"Matty what the fu.ck is going on?!" She screetched. I couldn't see anymore. Everything was a rush of colors. The room was silent, she must've left. All the memories came back, the rush of her lips against mine. The feel of her body was tingling in my fingers. I smelt her precious scent, the rush of roses hit my face with the same intensity as it always does.

"Wait!" I screamed jumping off the bed. I followed her my hands gripping onto various walls of a home I did not know. I saw her hair whip around her face as my finger tips reached her shoulder.

"Matty, please. Stop." she begged as my hands pulled her into my chest.

"Don't tell me to stop love." I whispered as she buried her face into my neck. The smell of cheap booze radiated off us both.

"You're going to break my heart." she whispered. Her words were mystified by another wave of my high vibrating through my body.

"Kiss me." I said rubbing my thumb across her redden cheeks. Her eyes narrowed into my lips as I gripped her skin roughly. The feel of her lips were intoxicating. The plumpness was overwhelming as her hands wrapped against my waist. I messily threw my hands around her neck deepening the kiss. It was the closest thing that was giving me any good feelings. It wasn't like kissing Gemma, it was hopeful. With this girl, there was hope. But with her, it was different. With Naomi there was a future....there was something. Now...theres nothing.