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by Trusamblxck

by Trusamblxck

// Love Me // is all that's on my mind

Matty

The sheets were skimming around my hips as my head lolled to the side. My chest was slick with sweat as her hair stuck to my fingers. Her eyes were still shut with sleep as my breathing was evening out. I was racking my mind to try and piece together what exactly happened. As i stood motionless in bed all that was coming back to me was bits of a bar, filled with people. I couldn't remember who was with me, but there was a girl. Her face was one i did not know, but we were in my room. Well, my temporary room. Did Naomi see us?

"Sh.it." I cursed, i did not want her to see me like this. And i already made an a.ss of myself the day before, for some reason the blow made me a complete di.ck.

Not that she didn't know that already

I moved under the frail body of the girl, she turned over finally releasing me from her weight. Her red hair was a shock for me, i wasn't fond of red heads. Her bare back was exposed as i began putting my clothes back on, my phone lit up from the floor. I picked up seeing 7 messages from Nick. Well sh.it.

Matty, don't forget at 8 you and Naomi are going to rehearse 7am

Where are you?? 7:30

Matty! 7:50

I swear you are not doing this, I'm dreaming right?? 8:10

I am personally kicking you out of this wedding, go back to wherever you came from 8:20

Why does anyone depend on you god.damn child! 8:45

Don't bother, we found a new person 9:15

It was currently 11:30. I slammed phone down on the ground screaming,

"Fu.cking hell!"

"Mmm..what happened baby?" her groggy voice purred, i turned to her seeing her smeared make up and nappy hair. I rolled my eyes,

"Go home. Now." I barked. Her eyes rolled as she nakedly climbed out of bed and hurried out of my room. I sat hanging my head with regret and shame. I was such a fuc.k up, always fu.cking something up. I couldn't even be there for my best mate on his wedding day, i couldn't get my girl back, i can't do sh.it. I breathed heavily as i felt a lump form in my throat. I groaned shooting up from the bed and began rapidly dressing myself and ran out of the house. I had to apologize, and they couldn't have found someone, who else is there but me?

I jumped in my rental and sped down downtown following the directions to the hall where the wedding reception was going to be held. My fingers gripped the wheel tightly as i weaved in and out of traffic. Nearly dead i made it to the hall and threw the car into park. I slammed the door shut and sprinted through the doors into a heated room with a sparkling chandelier. A calming water fall, and twinkling lights above me. I stopped, the place took my breath away. This wedding was going to be so beautiful, and i couldn't find myself fitting into this place. I was bound to wreck everything in my path. i was breathless and sweating by the time my feet stumbled to another set of double doors. I opened them slowly seeing feet dancing and the music began to pour through the walls. As the doors stood completely open for me i was stunned.

"Well look who finally showed." Adam grumbled, i opened my mouth to speak but when she turned around...She was in the arms of another man. A tall, built man, he looked clean. And when he turned i felt all the alcohol rise in my throat. His face had aged and his stance was secure, of course...of course HE was the person to replace ME.

"You have got to be shi.tting me!" I yelled pointing to him. His face grew dark and stern, but i was not afraid of him. What i was afraid of was the way Naomi curled into his arms as they were mid-dance.

"Matty, you have no decision in this. When you decided to show up 4 hours late to this rehearsal we had to do something." Jordan said quite angrily.

"Sorry mate, but Alex is reliable." George said shortly. He was beyond pis.sed at me.

I stood looking between Naomi and Alex. His face was triumphant, exuding possession and i knew beyond a doubt that she was unsure. She wanted me.

"Go home Matty." George muttered stepping closer to me. I furrowed my brows, there was nothing i could say. My best mate didn't even want me at his wedding. I dropped my head nodding,

"Fine. Don't mind me. I'll just be on my way." I said hoarsely as anger and regret began washing over me. I looked at her, just once. I needed this, this was my last straw, my last glimpse of hope. Her eye were sorry, the seemed sad. They mirrored me. Finally i pushed myself out of the hall and made my way back contemplating if i should go back to Gemma. We perfect for each other, destructive, animalistic pieces of shit.s

// hello! i missed you all. is anyone going to the new tour? comment your dates below! Im going to Club Nokia in LA Dec. 12 //