Thank you as a reader for finishing this book. If it may intrigue you on what inspiration may have inspired said book, it would be from me and my insecurities/my thoughts and experiences on the world and my own world. This book is also inspired from The Hate U Give made by Angie Thomas.
The characters played a many a part and they represent a few different things.
- Roland:
He mainly represents me but a perceived version of me. A version which wears many masks to cover himself up. A version which he can't feel emotions.
- Jazz:
A representation of my love and the personification of my love for music and the arts. Not to mention, in dabbling within other affairs however I will not specify
- Maveah:
Both supposed to represent a sister and a friend. A sister in the way mine left in ways that may have deconstructed my mental health. And in a friend as in how I felt deserted after friendship seems so frail and break loose at any moment even if it was something genuine and peaceful.
Shai:
In close correlations to the word child. She is supposed to represent my childhood and my innocence. It was there, then left then came back, but then left just as quickly for uncountable amount of time.
Jasline
Love starting to die (Possibly more)
Gavin
Roland's future/My future. Gavin is the next target of Mr. Ghoar after Jasline. Ie. I don't want my own self to ruin my future (friendships, familial relationships, career etc.).
Mr. and Mrs. Jence
supposed to represent the childlike nature of my perception of my parents. Sometimes it would feel as if I need to take care of them because they sometimes act with a childlike manner.
Mr. Roland Ghoar
A perception or reality of myself that wants to kill any other version of myself— wanting to sabotage itself
Paper Cranes
A symbol of fragility and of a human made whole.
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The events which occur also correlate to certain things.
The death of Maveah:
Relatives and/or friends leaving and the start of a chain reaction which affects the life similarly to myself
Spiderweb gazing:
My habit of staring into space as I read the room or think on life.
Not being able to cry/inability to scream/inability to let out anger/other events similar
The same except with genuine tears— not being able to feel a certain number of emotions
The 1st autopsy:
my habit of overthinking
Roland's error of words to his mother:
My inability to communicate or my lack of will to communicate
"A few weeks pass. It's time for Maveah's funeral. It feels like I want to lay in a coffin too."
I had, at some point in time, suicidal thoughts, either caused by guilt or through people.
"My parents seem to be arguing over whether red or mauve lipstick would be better for the occasion. In my opinion going to the funeral in black —no extra fixtures— would be fine."
My outlook being seen in black and white
Father's unreasonable anger
My family's inheritance of having a condescending tone if we are the least bit disturbed or unhappy
Birdwatching in the car
My want to get away from my problems by just feeling liberated and having the opportunity to fly free
"he thinks he is the prom king of the funeral. My mom is dressed like a queen, whether or not that is good or bad is dependant up to whether lofty dresses are appropriate for funerals."
My perception in which my parents are thinking of only themselves
Puppeteer book phrase
I feel as if I don't have autonomy— like I can't control myself and I move just like a robot
(*There are more, however I shall write them later*)
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The Leading of Paper Cranes
Gizem / GerilimRoland Jence, a junior at Miriyad High, feels unknowingly empty. Emotions do not seem to phase him. The murder of his sister, and the toppling of his family relations, he still sits at a stand-still. As he continues through his school life, he tries...
