Dear Me, I'm Pouring Back Into You

Hate on My Mind, Love on My Heart Featuring Zayy425

I don't cry so I won't succumb to drowning in my tears

I want to open up

But no one is willing to listen

They'd rather give me a life sentence of pain

Lock up in this head of mine

Look at the mess you've made

Look at the game you played

Not knowing how to articulate what to say

Is the reason why I always end up in predicaments like this

I'm left alone with love

Although I'm not in it

Yet still falling endlessly

Bound to endure the trauma left from this emptiness

Hopeful for it to be a lesson learned

Not just an infinite sea

That I'd could drift

I tend to be closed off

Wondering why my emotions are closed off

This hate on my mind and love on my heart

I have no clue where to start

Trying to explain these untitled feelings

And unbridled pain

I've been by myself

And eventually will take everything to the grave

I guess that I'm the only one superheroes don't want to save. (Zayy425)

I just want to be happy

I'm tired of having to dance around the facade that I have to be strong all the time

The damage she caused had me thinking if I still wanted to be alive

There were days I wanted to reach out

But wasn't committed to the outreach

Desired to hold her close

But she said she didn't want me

Wounded by her infidelity

And the betrayal of a friend

Had me contemplating if this was a new beginning

Or the beginning of the end

Hate on my mind

Love on my heart

My faithfulness was shattered and shot right through with darts

I can never hate someone

Even if I tried

Instead of wiping away the tears

They fell from my eyes

I was brutalized 

Never received an apology

Never got credit for the good I've done

Wondered if she was truly proud of me

Proud to call me her man

Proud to be my queen

I asked for nothing

And still got nothing when I gave her everything

This hate on my mind circulated my brain

Started thinking I was only valued because of the weight of my name

Love filled the empty spaces like a canvas

Pondered how I made this hurt look so beautiful despite it being tragic

I just want to be appreciated

Alleviated of the used to be

I desire to love somebody

And somebody to desire to love me. (Pyro Tha Great)