Dear Me, I'm Pouring Back Into You

Don't Call Me

This is the last time

That my phone is greeted with your voice

I wish the dial tone picked up on your red flags

I wish I had the signal to drop you

When you confessed what you did

But love kept me on hold

Waiting for you to click over

Waiting to hear about your day

Waiting to hear you call me bae

Waiting to hear you say my name

Don't call me

I should've kept you on silent

My heart became cold as ice

I wanted revenge and violence

I shouldn't be public with this

I need to be more private

My existence meant nothing to you

All the things I've done

Was never appreciated

I was just an option

Never a priority

We are not the same

You went and found somebody else

I went and found myself

Now you're developing feelings that are contradicting

I blamed myself for wanting to die

And depicting you as my reason for living

You said and did nothing

Had the closest people degrade my existence

Created rumors and accused me of slander

When I was in love with your grandeur

You made a fool of me

Told me that you weren't going anywhere

Said I was yours from head to toe

Claimed we moved fast

But loved how our love was slow

You broke me

Had me second guessing

Had me questioning if you were a curse or a blessing

Asked me where I been

Man, I can't take no more

Don't call me

A text couldn't even suffice the lies in each line

You know the truth

But found safety in being asinine

Discovered comfort in infidelity

Made fun of my softness

Destroyed my boundaries which lead to jealousy

What happened to your mindset?

What happened to the crown that rests on your head?

When you told me that you could see your future husband in me

Did you mean that

Or was that confabulatory?

Chose to out of sight and out of mind

Now a friend with benefits to another guy

When you could've been a wife

I should've seen this side from a bird's eye

Now I'm left repairing the damage you've made

Wondering how I'm going to fix this shattered vessel known as my heart

While you made it easy to move on from me

I hope you're at peace

Don't worry about me

This is my final phone call to you

Sincerely Yours,

A Healing King