Aᴘᴏᴄᴀʟʏᴘsᴇ -Carl GrimesXreader

𝙏𝙬𝙞𝙘𝙚 𝙖𝙨 𝙛𝙖𝙧-S6E14

(Y/n)'s POV:

I was guessing that Carol and Tobin were like a thing.Carol was spending more time at Tobin's house.I wasn't mad or anything,I was actually happy for her.It just meant that I saw less of her.Carol started smoking too.She tried hiding it but I wasn't that stupid.
Tara and Heath left.I didn't even get to say bye to Tara,I had no idea that they were leaving the first chance that they got.
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Carl's POV:

I've had a lot on my mind recently.
Mainly the stuff that was on my mind was (Y/n).Well,actually,she was the only thing on my mind.

I don't want to sound like one of those annoying cringe people,but,i think I like her.I didn't even know what "liking somebody" felt like or even was,but I was almost certain that I felt like that about (Y/n).
She has been my friend forever,even before the world went to complete shit.
I wanted to tell her,the only thing that was stopping me was if she didn't like me back,then our friendship would be completely fucked.I always tell her the truth and how I feel about things,I just haven't told her about this.
I tried not talking to her as much so I would stop feeling like that but each time I'm away from her I only think about her even more.She started noticing and I had to pretend like I was busy,I didn't want her thinking that I hated her or anything.
I remember listening to people when I was growing up and they were asking each other how they find love in a world like this.Growing up in a world like this meant that I didn't know the meaning of liking people or even loving them.

I loved when she smiled,her eyes would practically glow and it made me feel weak when she looked directly at me.
Sometimes I get that feeling when I'm with (Y/n),the feeling when you feel like your heart is going to rip through your chest.

I was only just starting to realise what Glenn and Maggie were talking about back at the welcome party when we first got to Alexandria.Best part was,they were right.Even if (Y/n) didn't like me back I still loved her.I wanted to tell her.
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(Y/n)'s POV:

I was sitting on the porch swing.
I was bored,yet again.Enid was busy helping Maggie and I wasn't sure about Carl and Mikey.

"Hey,(Y/n)! I've got a present for you." I heard from behind me.I sat up and looked over my shoulder to see Mikey walking up to my house. "Hey,Mikey.What do you mean by present?" I furrowed my brows.
Mikey finally reached the porch and came and stood next to me.

Mikey then handed me something small.A photo. "Thought you might want it.Well,both of you." Mikey said.
I looked down at the photo and it was the one that Mikey took of me and Carl the first time we met him.I had a small smile creeping up on my face.
"I actually love this picture and I am so grateful the you had a weird thing for taking photos of everyone.I look really good in it too." I laughed.

"Yeah,yeah.Uh...I have to ask you something." Mikey got quiet.
"Uh-huh?" I nodded and waited for him to talk again. "Has Enid said anything?" He asked.
"Enid says many things,Mikey." I said sarcastically. "No-Like...I don't know,maybe...about me?" Mikey sat down beside me and looked down at the floor.
I smiled at him. "Maybe."
Mikey looked back up and suddenly had a much happier expression.
"I know you like her.I totally think you should tell her." I laughed.Mikey furrowed his brows. "Really?" He asked.
"Totally." I nearly whispered.

Then,the most coincidental thing to ever happen happened,Enid came from around the corner.She had no idea we were looking at her.Enid looked tired,sighing as she walked back home.
"There she is.Go tell her,you might never get another chance." I whispered,not wanting her to hear us.Mikey glanced back at her and then me.He then nodded,stood up and rushed over to Enid.

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I was still sat on the porch,this time I saw something a little different.I saw Daryl and Carol carrying something that was wrapped with a white sheet.I was hoping it wasn't what I thought it was.A body.
That's the only thing it could've been,right? But who's?

I stood up and started of walking but then started picking up the paste as they started heading for the cemetery.

When I made it to them they both stopped.Daryl had his head down and Carol was just barely looking up.
It was defiantly a body.
"Who is it?" I asked quietly.Daryl looked up at me for a minute and then back down at the ground.Carol looked at me and sighed. "Denise." She barely even spoke.More like a mutter.

My face dropped even more than it did before.I guess I had gotten used to the deaths,or I just wasn't that crazily upset because i never really knew her.That doesn't mean that she wasn't going to be missed.

They gently dropped Denise's body in the hole in the ground.I sat on the ground with my knees pulled up towards my chest.I was watching them throw soil back over her soulless body and them stopping ever few seconds.
I heard the familiar footsteps coming from behind me.Boyd came and sat next to me,wanting attention. "Hey,boy." I said,in a sorrowful tone.Boyd was whimpering and I started scratching him behind the ears.He was probably confused as to why I was acting like that.

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"Carol?" I called out.No reply.My first thought was that she was at Tobins house but searching around our house I couldn't find her,not even most of her possessions.
Once I walked into the kitchen I saw something on the counter.I stopped in my tracks to stare at it for a moment before actually going to see what it was.

Flipping the piece of folded paper in my hand I noticed the writing on the back of it reading "Carol" with a small heart next to her name.I furrowed my brows and then unfolded the paper.
It was a letter.

Dear, (Y/n).
I want you to know that I never left because of you or anything you did.I know what it's like when people walk out
on you and you start to think that you were the problem...

I slowly made my way into the hallway whilst reading the letter.I was going to go into the lounge room but I didn't make it.I sat on the bottom step of stairs in the hallway instead.

... You've probably grown an attachment to me over the past few years,I don't blame you.I'm a nice person to be around.There really is no nice way I can say this but,I need to go.Go means leaving Alexandria.I know it's wrong to leave especially with you being my responsibility now.I don't know what to say expect that I am deeply sorry.Please don't come looking for me.Stay strong,carry on and live a good and happy life.May we see each other again soon.Carol シ

My smile faded.Why was she leaving?
She can't just leave?
This wasn't fair.

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