A Burning Desire

24- Who is She

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Marinette's POV

Tears were running down my cheeks. I couldn't stop them. I hadn't moved from where I was standing. I didn't know if i was shocked, mad, or confused—I'm pretty sure I was all of the above.

How could Adrein—Chat Noir?—keep this a secret from me for so long and just expect me to understand?

I wanted to talk to someone, but no one would get it. Not even my best freind Alya could understand.

I sat on my bed with me knees pulled up to my chest, holding them close while I cried. I didn't know what to think, or what to feel. I was just there, crying my eyes out.

I almost screamed when I heard a knock come from my door. "Honey?"

I tried my best to wipe my eyes and sat up right as my Mom entered my room. She looked like she wanted to say something but stopped as soon as she saw the look on my face.

"Marinette, sweetie, are you okay?"

Those are the three words you should never say to someone when they are literally holding back tears.

I tried to talk, but the lump in my throat made it almost impossible. I took one look at my Mom's concerned face, and the tears broke free once again.

"No, I'm not okay." I said, chocking up. She immediately ran to my side and pulled me into a hug.

"Sweetheart, what's wrong?" She asked, in such a gentle and comforting tone.

"It's nothing Mom, I've just been having a really stressful day." I lied. I knew I couldn't tell her the full truth.

She pulled away from me and looked me in the eye. "Marinette, I'm your Mother. I know something else is bothering you."

She wiped the tears off my eyes with her thumbs. "You can tell me."

I really did want to tell her. I wanted to tell her everything, and just cry my eyes out to her. About me being Ladybug, Adrein, Cat Noir—everything. But as much as i wanted to, I just knew I couldn't.

"I told you mom, I just had a bad day." I assured her, forcing a smile. She looked at me, and I could tell by her twisted expression she saw right through my lies, but didn't want to bother me any longer.

"If that's what you say dear." She smiled back, getting up from my bed. "But if you want to talk to me about anything, know i'm here for you."

I nodded at her, and she finally left the room. I felt completely defeated. It felt like I had no one.

I literally had no one.

I wanted to feel bad for Adrien, and try to give him the benefit of the doubt. I wanted to understand why he would see me not only as Adrien but also as Chat Noir when I had no idea they were the same people.

Maybe it was my fault. Maybe it was his fault. Maybe it was both of our faults.

The only thing I wanted to do was cry. I still did love Adrein dearly, but It felt like i couldn't forgive him. It hurt to know all this time that I thought I was the bad person and constantly beat myself up, when this whole time I was being fooled.

Even though I was fuming, I secretly hoped I would hear a tap on my trap window. I secretly hoped he would just come back and tell me about how much he loved me, and that I never knew the truth. I knew it was an awful thing to hope for, but I just wanted everything back to how they used to be.
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Adrein's POV

I stood in front of Hawkmoth, Frozen in fear. He had my miraculous in his hand and tossed it up and down like it was just some useless toy.